This past year has been a rough one - i was diagnosed with hyper thyrodism and Graves disease , spent three months with insomnia and lost my dad. All this brought on terrible anxiety and have being a therapist for a year. he prescribed lexapro and I feel it works but the only thing that seems to to really keep me calm is xanax which i take 1/2 mlg three times a day. I have been taking this for 11 months and it is a big help. My big issue is I am always looking for the anxiety to come back even when I am calm- Does anyone else have that issue and if so what do you do to get this monster out of your head?
My work has suffered because i can not stay focused all day.
I am so sorry to hear of your difficulties. I have panic disorder with agoraphobia. Anxiety can get quite high. I, too, take xanax and have found it to be my saving grace. Ive been on it since 1989. What you describe is called anticipatory anxiety. Its like gearing up for the next attack to occur, knowing its eventually coming. But, it may not happen! I know it is very difficult to stay focused when youre continually feeling anxious. For me, deep breathing helps tremendously. "Belly breathing" instead of "chest breathing" really does help. I feel severe constriction of my throat and chest when I have an attack. If your xanax isnt stopping the attacks, even the anticipatory anxiety, you may need a dosage adjustment. Just recently, I ordered crayons and a coloring book to focus on in difficult times. Sounds silly, but it does the trick. My biggest hurdle was the fact that I had to take my meds for the rest if my life. I didnt want to, and started titrating myself off, which led to hospitalization. I signed a contract with my "shrink" stating I would never discontinue the meds. Since then, its been pretty good. It is what it is. Hopefully your anxieties can get under control and you feel comfortable again soon. Best wishes to you.
Thanks for your notes. I will try the breathing exercises. The goal is just to control the thoughts.