Heartbroken

[Brighterdays518]

Hello Everyone,

So it’s been about five months since I’ve been going through a breakup, and today I am feeling especially anxious. Has anyone ever felt like their mind is racing as if their going crazy?

[Underthestressvibe]

Hello! Yes, broke 👆 with long term relationship 11 plus years in May this past year. 2018. He was a Narcicisstic man who called me names and went through my phone and email and journals. Called my contacts at 12 am. Trashed me to his family and coworkers. Me?? I now am trauma bonded and working full-time still as always. Night is lonely. I blocked him on the 📱 and all social media accounts. Time will heal you. 🤗. Please use this time to take care of yourself. Exercise and read and enjoy what you could not while with him. You will persevere. I work with full blown panic attacks and nobody has a clue. 🤔. Just always get up.. Dress 👆 and get er done!!!

[Brighterdays518 in reply to Underthestressvibe]

Thank you for your uplifting words! Yes, time will heal but I still have my moments. I definitely understand I’m a Kindergarten teacher and currently attending classes to obtain my masters degree. I think what hurts the most is that I didn’t receive any close from this relationship. I was ghost out thinking our relationship was all good and never thought it would lead to this point...

[Underthestressvibe in reply to Brighterdays518]

Take care my friend and reach out to me. I do understand. 😔

[FightingTheDarkness]

Went through a bad break up of a long term relationship back in March. Dealt with the depression and anxiety for several months. To be honest, I still do. It will come out of nowhere at times.

Feeling crazy with the constant racing thoughts was horrible. I went down a bad path and started binge drinking to numb the pain. Dont do what I did.

[Underthestressvibe in reply to FightingTheDarkness]

Hi, I'm quite new on here, but if you read my profile, you will see I relate. My now ex boyfriend gave me 4 rings. 4!!! He still owns a 🏡 with his ex wife and he pays half of the bills and alimony also. They have been divorced 14 years. He lived with me 9 of the 11 years. We broke up many times due to the" living with the ex wife" getting ✉ there.. Having her open his mail. Imagine.. You cant even visit your boyfriends house because his ex wife is there. This is a 60 year old man. Not a kid. He has a 35 year old son!!! Insane!!! I sent him home abruptly in early May. We were at each others throats constantly. He was a verbal abuser and Narcicissit as well. I understand the pain. Its like he died.. But no closure. I know he is an hour from here living with ex wife. I work full-time and have since 1998. I pay my bills and dont look for sympathy. It is painful and hard. I'm in counseling again. It never goes away. Its my 🏡. But I'm seeing "reminders " daily. Its painful. Nobody understands unless they have been trauma bonded. 😔

[MomLeslieM]

I'm so sorry for the loss of your relationship -- and even though no one died, it sounds like it was sudden and unexpected and not at all what you wanted. The grief you felt and continue to feel is the same kind of grief as when someone has died and it can indeed come and go and last for awhile, you can seem fine and then suddenly you get hit with a wave -- and that wave can definitely manifest itself in so many ways including anxiety. Through your school EAP program or the college you're getting your Master's do you have access to a therapist/counseling?? If so you might find it helps to talk through what's going on and your feelings about the breakup and life. Above all, take things one day at a time and keep moving forward - even on days when that progress seems really slow.

[Brighterdays518]

Thank you all for your positive words! I greatly appreciate it! ❤️