Agoraphobia

[AlyssaJean]

I’ve been struggling with agoraphobia and This Panic disorder for the past few years. I’m always thinking of my symptoms and scared I’m dying at all times. Medications are rough for me and I don’t handle them well I’m extremely sensitive to them. Has anyone ever overcome this and how? My thoughts are intense. I can turn something so little into something huge and horrible. I’m tired of feeling insane all the time and I haven’t had much support. My mother moved to vegas I live in Chicago and I have severe abandonment issues. I was with a sociopath narcissist for 4 years who emotionally beat me down til I was dead exhausted and felt insane. I left him about 5 months ago but still think of the abuse often and scared. I’m always trembling. I can’t drive or leave the house alone, don’t go in department stores , can’t work .... am I the only one feeling like it’s impossible to get out of this? Am I the only one suffering from this?

[pink83737]

It will get better, you’re not alone. Keep working on yourself and you will get better.

[AlyssaJean in reply to pink83737]

I’m trying very hard but it just seems impossible

[pink83737 in reply to AlyssaJean]

I know it does, but try not to have a negative mindset. You will get through this I promise! Just be positive even when things go wrong. Research about mindfulness, it’s very helpful

[kkat37]

You survived that horrible relationship and you can survive this! Keep the faith. Could you possibly go visit your Mom for some weeks? That might help being around family.

[AlyssaJean in reply to kkat37]

When my mom moved I had to move to the middle of nowhere because that bf I was with didn’t commit like promised. I lost my career . I couldn’t move . Was completely debilitated. I had a friend loan me money to move back to the burbs after a year of being in bufu in corn fields in a basement apartment where I cried for A year and couldn’t push past my panic attacks. when I moved back I thought I’d be able to push past it. Finally left that guy after taking abuse for a year and being far and feeling alone and no family around. I met someone new who’s helped. I got evicted because I couldn’t pay for my place anymore. Had to make the decision to let my son go stay with his dad because I couldn’t drive him to school when I woke up too late because I was too depressed. It damaged his school. Now my bf is trying to help me through it but doesn’t understand its it’s a emotional block that stop me I get flashbacks. Of all the abuse. Of all the panic attacks. Of feeling worthless because my ex fed every fear of mine . It’s been the hardest few years of my life and I’m trying to let go of the bad and forgive. But my family had been awful and I’m realizing a lot of it stems from that. I also have a past history of sexual abuse , when I was 11 was involved in human trafficking. My mom was a severe alcoholic I don’t touch drugs or alcohol but all of this is catching up to me. My mother never got me help. Bad upbringing. I feel loved or anything m strong but can’t seem to work through my damages

[Agoraphobia39]

I know you posted 3 months ago, but in case you're still on, please know that you are NOT alone! I get so angry when people say to me that i need to get past this and just move on, just get over it or that I'm crazy. Of course you cant go visit your mom in Vegas...the thought of the flight or drive in horrifying I would imagine!

I passed out while driving last May...only 2 weeks after graduating with my Bachelors in Psychology. From that moment on...i cannot go a day without panic attacks. I do have a heart condition but they still arent sure what caused me to passout. I did not wreck my car, i was able to get over to the side of the road when I began to blackout. So no trauma, but it caused severe anxiety that I havent been able to let go.

I also tried some medications, however any change in my body causes my body to panic so what would normally help the average anxiety, it makes me worse. I just got on this site today in hopes that I can turn my life around before it kills me. I hope you are doing much better, just know you are not alone!

[AlyssaJean in reply to Agoraphobia39]

Add me on Facebook (Alyssa Jean Blackburn ) let’s talk some more!

[Agoraphobia39 in reply to AlyssaJean]

Whoch one are you lol