Abandoned

[alexia_russell]

My depression is constantly swallowing me whole and I feel like I have no way out. I feel like I’m constantly ruining every relationship because I can’t get my mind right. I don’t feel like I deserve anything good in this world. I don’t know where I belong anymore. Everytime I let someone in they say they can handle it and then they realize how bad it is and they run...when that happens being abandoned makes it worse. I start to panic and beat down on myself. It’s like a constant horrible circle that I can’t get out of.

[Iloveart7]

I'm sorry you are having such a hard time. (((Hugs)))

[viiexplorer]

Hang in there. You at least identified the reason, so continue to find a way to cope. Posters here will listen to your concerns.

[tamka38]

Love yourself first and everything else falls into line.

You really have to love yourself to get anything done in this world.

Friendship with one's self is all important, because without it one can not be friends with anyone else in the world.

Never make someone a priority when all you are to them is an option.

[tamka38]

You deserve the affection that you kept trying to pour into others.

You deserve the same motivation that you tried to inspire in others.

You deserve the high of happy, without the low of sadness. You deserve the joy of being spoiled, without the catch of having to repay. You deserve the relaxation of trust, without the paranoia of betrayal.

You deserve to be confident, without the reminder to be humble. You deserve to look at your reflection with eyes of awe, not judgment.

You deserve to be held forever, not for a night,You deserve to be first, second, and third, You deserve to have everything you want,You deserve this power. It is who you are and who you will always be.”