What's left to do??

[Jupiter03]

I have been trying to find help but everything I find I am unable to afford. I have severe depression, anxiety, panic attacks, flashbacks of things I want left in the past, insomnia, and I'm not sure if there is more. I am currently looking for work and I find that difficult because I am afraid to even open my front door half the time. It feels like I have no one to talk to or when I try, they don't understand or don't want to hear what I have to say. I feel like I'm at the end of a rope, hanging with no way back up and nothing to catch me when I fall. I don't want to give up, I don't want to fight a battle I can't win either. I don't know what is left for me to do.

[kenster1]

hi and welcome to you.your doctor should be pointing you to free help charities in your area.make an appointment and don't leave till your satisfied.i suffer everything that you have but I find ways of coping.either by going walks even doing housework.maybe group therapy would be good for you as you would be meeting like minded people.if you ever fall from that rope we will catch you and support you in your journey.you aint exhausted all avenues its just as yet you aint been directed up the right path.opening up is the worst part and you've done that now keep opening up and don't be afraid to speak out.if you don't it will stay trapped in your mind and become harder.please talk it really does help.

[Jupiter03 in reply to kenster1]

My next appointment is in July, though I've been and will continue to try every day to get in sooner.

As for talking, I'm not even sure where to begin... I'm not sure if I should start with what happened to make me this way or what I'm feeling...

[Hidden]

You took the first step. And this a safe place to take that step.

I fell apart this morning. I also referred to my hands slipping off the rope of sanity.

This community...this group of genuine, kind, caring people helped me get a better grip.

This is not easy. But trying to do it alone is almost impossible.

You are not alone. We fight this war together. This morning I was a casualty.

Tonight I am a warrior again.

Welcome.

I hope you find peace...and hope.

[Jupiter03 in reply to Hidden]

Thank you. I've been falling apart almost every day for the past week..

[Hidden in reply to Jupiter03]

I understand. I was scraping the bottom on Saturday. I'm better, but far from ok.

But I AM better now than then.

We will get through this together.

You matter.

[Jupiter03 in reply to Hidden]

I'm glad you're doing better. Wish I could say the same. Maybe one day

[Hidden in reply to Jupiter03]

You will get better. I'm not ok...but I'm better than I was.

The kindness I was shown here made me feel better.

Know that we understand and that we care about you.

And we will be here to advise, support, or cry with you.

You matter. Don't give up.

[Jupiter03 in reply to Hidden]

Last night and today have been pretty bad... Couldn't even sleep last night, all I've been able to do is cry. I'm trying to stay busy, to keep pushing forward

[kalinevada]

Go to doctor/psychirist and apply for disability.

[lovetodance2018]

I am sorry you are struggling. It is good you reached out on this site. Everyone here understands your struggles and is here to support and listen. There are places you can contact for help that you. Here is a link to a site that can help you. bit.ly/2BP0lha You sound like a fighter and that you are strong. I will be praying God will guide you to the , medication, and therapy you need and that you will be feeling better soon. Please continue to keep in touch. Hugs and Blessings.

[Jupiter03 in reply to lovetodance2018]

Thank you. I try with all I have

[lovetodance2018 in reply to Jupiter03]

Please continue to keep in touch and let us know how you are doing. Continuing to pray for you. Hugs!