Can you help me?

[flybywire]

Hello all,

Firstly I want to apologise if I am writing this in the wrong thread, pretty new to the world of anxiety and depression and pretty much been shoved straight into the deep end. Let me tell you my story, sorry if its a bit long a strung out. I wont mention the medication here as it does have its perks and I don't want someone in a vulnerable state of mind to see that and try to feel those effects themselves if that makes sense. All that needs to be said is its an opiate pain medication.

About 3 years ago I was involved in a pretty serious motorbike crash and in turn was given opiate based pain medication. Well I am happy to say my injuries have now fully healed and its time to come off of these medications. Well since my tapering (I have not completely come off yet) I cant sleep more than 3 hours due to excruciating panic attacks that pretty much disable me until they’re over. Constant dark thoughts. I am signed off work right now as I can’t physically work, can barely work on my own business either. I do sports trading, not going to go into detail but its more trading price than gambling. Its a very time consuming and tedious activity and I can’t seem to control my rushing thoughts enough to stay focused for 10 minutes, let alone 5-6 hours.

I am not completely innocent, I never went over the maximum daily allowance but I live a pretty hectic lifestyle. When I finish work, I would come home and then work on my trading so a normal day would be around 18 hours for me and these tablets would help.. a lot!

So.. does anyone have any advice for me to at least continue my normal professional life. I am pretty good at ignoring my emotions, its just the panic attacks that make me physically weak and my mind rushing a 280mph thats stopping me from.. well, living.

Thanks in advance for reading and hope you all have a great day/night!

[Agora1]

Hi flybywire, I am happy to hear that your serious injuries are now healed. Now comes

the harder part and that is getting off the meds you've become dependent on.

It will take a professional to guide you safely through your weaning process. This is

an important step for you to take in order to get your normal professional life back.

I've gone though the weaning process myself involving benzos.

I wish you well. x