I am too sick to endure the cure.

[NeuroticSanity]

I have now discovered that there are 2 existing therapy avenues which might really treat my mental illnesses instead of their symptoms and results. Sadly, I have been told that without a stable life, a strong support network and the ability to stop my past from tearing at my heart and mind, these programs would do more harm than good. If I had all those things, I probably wouldn't need the therapy!

"Arrrhggghhh"!!!!! *sob* *sigh*

Sorry for yelling. I really needed to vent my extreme frustration to people who might understand.

[Agora1]

Hi NeuroticSanity, yes it would be nice if we all had the support system around us as

well as a stable life but you're right, if that were the case we wouldn't have the problem. ugh... You've come to the right place to vent as well as have people who do understand

I noticed that your last post stated that you are a foster mother and have 2 children.

Is that playing into any of your emotional issues?? I was the foster mother to my daughter

who I have adopted. It hasn't been easy at all because of all her emotional issues which

prompted me to become agoraphobic and suffer GAD.

We are here to listen and understand what you are going through. I'm glad you found

us. xx

[NeuroticSanity in reply to Agora1]

I have 2 female dogs. Both were rescue dogs; one I found running in busy traffic the other, I rescued from a neglectful owner. The first has been with me for four years. The second, I did not intend to keep and have been trying to find a responsible family who will truly care for her (hence, she is my foster dog). Finding a home for her has been harder than I thought as has been the training of a puppy who had been living in an unstructured environment for about a year (her first). After 6 weeks with me, she had her vaccinations and was (and remains) free of fleas, tapeworms, and infection. I am proud of that, though healthy puppies are all the more rambunctious. 🙂

[Agora1 in reply to NeuroticSanity]

You've got your hands full Sanity. Nothing like seeing a young puppy

who is happy and health that you can be proud of for taking that puppy out

of harm's way. xx

[Calm_mama]

Hi neuroticSanity,

It's good to vent

The message you received (that these programs would do more harm than good) sounds a little off to me. Would you be willing to elaborate more? What kind of therapy avenues/programs are you looking into?

[NeuroticSanity in reply to Calm_mama]

The first, I learned about approximately 9 months ago. When I learned about the need for stability and support, I threw it on my mental trash heap. The second is Pia Mellody's program for dealing with childhood trauma. The requirement is not written anywhere but, after a long discussion with a representative at the official clinic of that program, I was told that, as part of the intake evaluation, the clinician would determine if I was emotionally strong enough to bear the process .

[Calm_mama in reply to NeuroticSanity]

Ah, got it. Thank you!

I'm sorry to say I don't know anything about Pia Mellody. But I have to agree with you, how frustrating that there are these limitations placed on people who want/need this service. I hope you can find something that will work for you.

On another note, so glad you have the doggie babies. They are a lot of work (especially the pup!) but as you know, man's best friend! I actually have fewer human friends since I got my German Shepherd pup a year ago and spend so much time with her

Wishing you all the best -

[kvolm2016 in reply to NeuroticSanity]

I think that the clinician having to make a determination based on your intake evaluation is probably just a standard protocol to see if you are a suitable candidate for this program. I don't think it necessarily means that you have to already be emotionally strong but rather that they want to ensure that you will be strong enough for what you will experience during the treatment program. Are you still thinking about pursuing this?

[NeuroticSanity in reply to kvolm2016]

Only on a self-study basis; reading the books.

[kvolm2016 in reply to NeuroticSanity]

Are you far enough along to have an impression of whether this will be helpful for you? If so, in what ways?

[NeuroticSanity in reply to kvolm2016]

I had a traumatic childhood and often replay events from it in my head, frequently with a full, intense emotional response.

I will starting the first book today. If you are curious about it, go to YouTube and enter Pia Mellody's name in the search bar.

[kvolm2016 in reply to NeuroticSanity]

I'm sorry to hear that the intensity of the emotional responses has not decreased over time. I know that is what we all hope for.

I looked at the selection of videos by Pia Mellody. I am impressed by how many topics she covers. Saw the one you mentioned on dealing with childhood trauma. Hope that turns out to be a good resource for you! I have a few websites that I usually use as my "go to" when I am looking for help. I particularly like this one since there are lots of articles all together here: bit.ly/2hwXnqH

Maybe something helpful for you too.