Ruin things

I been getting easily annoyed a lot more and have more anxiety. Getting all these unwanted thoughts and it’s like I’m trap. I cry and freak out. Last night was bad I broke down in front of my boyfriend couldn’t stop crying,breathing heavy and shaking. He try to calm me down I’m just feel bad putting him through this. He says he understands and it’s not my fault but I know I still ruin things.

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If you’re ignoring deeper and serious issues you may have, little inconveniences can set you off. bottling up anxiety and feelings can make you explode over the littlest things. maybe there’s a deeper issue you haven’t dealt with.

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I found out that among discipline and being self assured about life one very simple technique helped me a lot. I simply wrote

1. What bothers/scares me

Naturally when anxious you overexaggerate . But its all good. Give it to paper. Be short. Be laconic. I was bithered that I am develooing chronic issues because of few issues.

I was bothered bumy my job (not performance. I was frustrated i stopped having a vision why i work there at all.

2. Write answers to these problems.

For example - I am scared of self harm.

- lets see have you done it? No. Then If I feel strained what should u do? I could try channeling anger or frustration. Where? And I signed up for boxing. I can literally punch out my bad emotions.

.. i went over problems wrote 2 A4 pages.. suddenly felt actualy bored to continue as my anxiety stopped bugging me.

2. Then I did writing #2 - my plan (you can and should write a plan every day. I simply wrote down my bigger goal smaller ones. Discarded few. My brain was super pleased with this newfound structure in life and anxiety was gone. I wrote down very simple things I had to accomplish that day and was done - write x psper at work, eat protein filled dinner, gym, read interesting article needed for business, I had lying around.

Ince you write stuff down you simply let go of everything else. Unless you planned "worry 1 hour" worries should eventually give up in fsce of a certain plan you follow every day