Ok, I am curious what the hell am I feeling.
I have some anxiety bouts since I quit smoking some 7+ weeks ago. I think withdrawal + existing depression + stressful time + etc. etc. cause d a real SHOCK to my brain so I have this or that sympthom all the time now.
Worst are - Insomnia and weird anxiety bouts. I already ruled out that my smoking may have covered schizophrenia, as I actually get interested in things more and more, my outlook to life is positive (for example yesterday I once again remembered how much I love Roman history and watched a ton of Caesar's battles videos), I laugh and feel sadness, I prefer socializing to loneliness.
But my anxiety (I think) is just messing with me - first I have insomnia or perhaps disrupted sleep for weeks now. I had major panic attacks when quit smoking and now I almost have subconscious fear of going to bed.
Because of sleep disruptions I think I developed mind-pops or random thoughts and sometimes just racing thoughts - I am a very quick person naturally, like a ferret on wheels - but these thoughts are just an avelanche. I consciously think - ok, I need to calm down and stop thinking a little. It helps, but I usually start just doing something to avoid it.
Then next - if I really think about it I start having random memories popping in my mind. Not like voices, but thoughts, that I know I have heard or seen, often simply during the day, but they appear randomly (not like too much, but when I feel anxious they appear).
Because of the bad sleep I often wake up and during these "just-out-of-dream" states I have panicky thoughts about having woken up again and then I have random thoughts and voila - I start panicking about hearing voices in my head.
I repeat - I am 100% aware the thoughts come from my consciousness, but I get scared since I never had anything like that before.
And finally - just sitting around working - if I drift off in concentration too much, sometimes during the day I feel a bit scared.. I start having very subtle fears - like my hands tingle a little and I start thinking about it and I start feeling as if I need to scratch something and then in a dumb roundabout of thoughts I start thinking about scratching my face etc. I am in full control, but I think it is my fight or flight response just boiling inside, it makes my mind concentrate on this anxiety attack and I hate it making me stop doing what Im doing.
Just like anxiety attacks - these weird feelings disappear in about 10 minutes.
So - people with anxiety, please tell me if you have experienced anything like this?