Depression

I am glad I found this app. I am head of a major organization and embarrassed that I have suffered from depression and anxiety for so long but I am damn good at what I do. It’s a life or death organization and I have to be on top of my game all the time. I was told it is lonely at the top and sure enough it is. This condition can happen through all walks of life. At the bottom and at the top. I just wanted to say hi and I can’t wait to hear from the community as I just joined today.

[Agora1]

berad, anxiety and depression do not discriminate as you are seeing. Man, woman,

young, old, we can all have our lives altered by these mental health issues.

I'm so glad you have reached out to a support system such as ours. We welcome you to a comfortable and safe place to come when life just gets too tough. You will find that you

are not alone. We understand and comfort each other because we care.

[Hidden in reply to Agora1]

Thank you so much! I appreciate you reaching out. Very tough night alone but I am glad I can talk without judgement and freely. Have a great night.

[Agora1 in reply to Hidden]

You too. We are only a message away if you need to talk.

[aaronm]

Hey. How are you? I'm a crisis therapist working with people who are suicidal or homicidal and I myself have chronic daily thoughts of suicide. Nice to meet you!

[Hidden in reply to aaronm]

Nice to meet you as well. Over the years I have thought that being dead would be better but I have two children that definitely need me and hope that I never come close to doing anything that would alter their life. They don’t even know what I am suffering with and think Daddy is the strongest they have ever seen.

[aaronm in reply to Hidden]

I don't think I'd ever do it. I know how irrational and crazy the thoughts are but it doesn't help. I've had to accept them simply as a part of my daily routine.

[Chantalmarie1988]

Hi there it will all be okay . We all suffer from inner demons. I wish you the best of luck. Have you tried yoga or meditation ? Yoga helps me a bit. I had a therapist say to me that everyone has issues but what makes us different is how we deal with those issues. Never be ashamed to ask for help. Asking for help makes you a strong person who is brave enough to realize you need help. Hope to talk to you soon again :)!

[Hidden in reply to Chantalmarie1988]

My wife and I did yoga for a long time but we have been separated for a month now. I lived away for my job for a year to promote for my family and it did damage as she resented me for it and still does. I need to get back to it and meditation as it helped me more than anything while I was gone. Thank you for the suggestion!

[Hidden]

Thank you so much!

[Momneedshelp]

Welcome! I know u will find strength and comfort from the love and support hete❤️

[KatarinaWajda]

First of all, being high up in an organization is something to be very proud of! Depression affects all people from all walks of life, no matter how successful, and it’s nothing to be ashamed of. Perhaps you can tap into your depression and pain to connect with your employees and drive empathy within your organization? Maybe putting your pain to use can help you feel a bit better, like it’s providing a little value. That being said, there are some little tweaks that you can start making every day to work on becoming happier. Reaching out and writing down your feelings is a great first step, and it’s a good sign that you’re putting yourself out there right now. Keep at it! You’re not alone.

[Hidden]

Hi berad.

Welcome to you.

I know I’ve learnt a lot being around here, hope you do to.

It’s helped me to better manage my mental health.

Good wishes to you 🌼🌼

[dons430]

I too suffer as you do. I have spent a lifetime search for that “sweet spot “ I see others have. You know the type, the people that are always happy, showing no signs of struggle. They seem to be able to live life on life terms with grace and acceptance. I recently joined a small men’s group that is studying Rick Warren’s book, “ A Purpose Filled Life”. This has been a game changer for me. I am in my mid 60’s s and have been thinking my life has been lived, leaving behind a lot of regret, guilt and shame for missing out on life because of my untreated depression. I am not saying what I found will work for you, what I am saying you are taking a step in the right direction by reaching out before you miss out. May I suggest to Humble yourself, seek a higher power and asked to be led to a solution for your state of mind. You do not have to live this way, but it takes courage and willingness to change. I journal constantly, I find this is a great way to get the crap out of my head and on paper. Sometimes I read stuff I wrote 3 months ago and laugh, sometimes cry. But I notice what is wrong and started a plan to change. My most recent episode is what I call The Gift of Desperation. I was as close to death as I ever have been . I figured out that the anxiety and depression is progressive, it never gets better on its own. As Karl Jung stated, you are not able to fix your mind with the mind you have. Get help, thoughts of suicide will return, intrusive thoughts, to the point you start planning and justifying that your family will understand. Your mind is cunning, baffling and powerful. I spent 60 years living in fear, I have led large organizations to prosperity, helped people change their lives, travel to third world countries to help others, and still battled depression. No one but my ex wife knew who I really was...so again, please get help. A life is a terrible thing to waste!!! God speed my friend.

[Hidden in reply to dons430]

I really "resonate" with the realization that even at 60 (I'm 50) that there is so much more living to do. I have a friend that is 85 and is so active in doing things she loves. It reminds me that I could start something new today and actually still become an expert at it. She started singing lessons at 80. She is still going on mission trips each year, combining travel with praying for others. I can hardly keep up with her myself.

"Resonate" is her word. We love talking about philosophy, theology, art. We resonate, each getting energy from each other as our minds connect.

[klhenry58]

Does anyone know where to find a crisis therapist in Wi. Sheboygan Co. my Fiance attempted hanging himself several weeks ago, and was taken to a facility in Green Bay for 4 days, and than send back home...his condition has been going on for over a year, he is unable to go to work and everything is getting so so bad.. We live 100 miles away and I see him every other weekend., his parents live 1/2 mile away from him, but are just going through the motions.. bringing him food and visiting him though out the day, all he does all day is lay in bed or pace around the house.. the medication he is on is not working- and they keep telling him "You will get better".

[Hidden]

Welcome. I can relate to having a high stress job, well I did until my anxiety became unbearable and I had a major breakdown. I actually had to change careers completely. Please get the help you need. You are irreplaceable to your kids.

[SuZQ154]

Welcome, berad! Joining a group like this is healthy and helpful. We understand. Have you considered seeing a counselor? The first time I went I was embarrassed because people like "us" can handle "anything"! Best decision I made. There were so many layers of my sadness and dysfunction of which I was not aware. Christian counseling helped me to see my strengths for my own "purpose-driven life" and my weaknesses. Would you consider counseling? Please keep posting here because we all gain support by being honest and coming along side one another.