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[wallflower1108]

Its been months since I last wrote anything and i have been struggling a bit. I guess more than usual, i'm not sure how to go on about life anymore. Mentally i'm so far away I don't hear anything but silence and I want to stay there. Yet I am always dragged back into reality with all it's noisy wonderfulness. Can you hear my sarcasm in that sentence. I've been through so much that i have now become so jaded in things I used to love. Like hugs from my favorite people that used to make me feel better but now annoy me whenever they touch me just a little. I also used to do this thing where I would just disappear without a word but now I can't since it will make the ones who still care (surprisingly still do) worry and will cause all kinds of trouble until I come back. then they would want to know know why I disappeared in the first place and I don't exactly know why I do it but when I have had enough I just do. BUT that is what I need right now to just disappear.

sorry if its all over the place my mind is just a chaotic wonderland right now......

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I don't really have anything helpful to say other than I understand and know the feeling. I am so overwhelmed right now, I just want everything to come to a stop. I want to disappear or maybe just live with my cat and dog in a car on an island somewhere. Idk

[wallflower1108 in reply to Hidden]

Sorry about that it definitely sucks and honestly that sounds very therapeutic, you know the living with the dog and cat in a car on an island somewhere.

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Hi wallflower,

It’s nice you came back to write here..I’m sorry your not doing so good right now 😞

I wanted to say welcome back and I hope being here helps ..

🌺🌸🌺🌸

[wallflower1108 in reply to Hidden]

Thank you and it really does

[Hidden in reply to wallflower1108]

That’s so good to hear x