After going to counseling for ...

[maskedjinn]

After going to counseling for a while in August I thought I improved on my anxiety and that I was a bit better. I didn't have any friends for a few years until this September I managed to make some and I am friends with two girls but I can't be myself around them and it's like all the progress I made means nothing because I'm not myself around them and I want to be myself. People say it takes time but its November now and I have to go back to college tomorrow because holidays are over and I don't feel like going because all I feel is depressed because at home I can always be myself and then at college I am someone else I feel like I'm trapped. And I know those two girls have got on quite well and I'm left out of the friendship because I'm quiet. The first few weeks were ok and I felt ok but now I feel depressed like how I used to be when I had no friends. It's also the whole feeling about being in a place where I'm not myself, I'm not happy and I have to be there it isn't a choice.