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[Magic214]

Hey I’m Michelle and I’ve been looking for support groups that work with my hectic schedule. I’m looking for people to talk to who understand me and relate. I have family and friends...but absolutely no support. Last night, i reached out to a crisis hotline because I experienced a really intense depressive episode where I attempted suicide. This hasn’t been the first time and deep down I really want to end everything....but before I just give up, I wanted to try something. Any support at this point would help.

[Tellmeaboutit]

Hi Michelle, I'll be happy to help if I can.

You say you called the crisis line? How did that go? I've never done that. Did it help? Did they not try hard to get you to go to the hospital?

I have also had trouble finding a support group (depression/bipolar) in my area. I'm actually thinking of trying to stat one.

Tell me about your situation. Family? Job/School? Are you receiving care for depression? Any specific thing that's troubling you recently?

[Magic214 in reply to Tellmeaboutit]

It went well. She definitely calmed me down, I spent a hour on the phone with her as she listened to me and gave me some good advice. It helped until I got off the phone. Smh. She didn’t try to get me to go to the hospital, but made me come up with an anti-suicide plan.

If you live close to me, I’d definitely help and support your group.

I have a 4 year old daughter. I left her father due to our relationship being toxic and abusive. My family lives near me, and I never ask them for help, but the time I do, they make me feel like I’m a burden. I take Bupropion 150mg and due to my job, I don’t really have time to see a therapist anymore.

The father of my child is harassing, stalking, and still trying to control me. It makes me want to die so I can finally be free. My entire life I’ve felt like my mom hated me& last night they both upset me very bad.

[Tellmeaboutit in reply to Magic214]

Good to know about the help line.

I went though a divorce 4 or 5 years ago, too. Some of the worst times of my life, so I can relate to that a little bit.

I'm near Washington, DC.

[Magic214 in reply to Tellmeaboutit]

I live in GA...lol. I’m sorry to hear about that. How did you cope during that time of you don’t mind me asking?

[Knowone in reply to Magic214]

If the father of your children is harassing you report him and get a restraining order. jail time is a good price to pay for breaking a restraining order.. keeping him at bay will help you recover quicker...

[hypercat54]

Hi nice to meet you and welcome to the site. We all understand on here and none of us judge anyone either. My only support is here too and I find it helps me to answer and try and help others too.

A good site if you want someone to chat to 1-2-1 is 7 Cups of Tea. It can be very cathartic to just talk and talk to someone. x

[Magic214 in reply to hypercat54]

I will definitely check that site out! Thank you. You literally have no idea how happy it made me feel to get replies and support.

[hypercat54 in reply to Magic214]

Ha ha I think we all felt like that when we got here! xx

[Magic214 in reply to hypercat54]

Hypercat it feels like we are friends for real and it has helped me get Through my work day. I usually try not to mention the S word, because it’s embarrassing, but I will remember that. I forgot to ask you and hope, it how are you two?

[Hidden in reply to hypercat54]

Thanks for sharing that site Hypercat it sounds interesting xx

[hypercat54 in reply to Hidden]

It's a good site. You get a volunteer listener who aren't trained or only a little bit. One word of caution though don't mention suicide in any way shape or form otherwise they will cut you off. There is also a forum too. x

[Hidden in reply to hypercat54]

Thank you x for now this site is okay what what I need ... just a group chat now and then x but it’s good to know x

[Hidden]

Hello Michelle and thank you for finding us and sharing your story x

Im so sorry for the struggles you’re facing at the moment x is there anything in particular triggering this x

Please be sure to reach out for professional help (doctors, GP) if you’re struggling that much x

Always know that you’re not alone and we are all here for you as your friends x 💕

[Magic214 in reply to Hidden]

Thank you Hope! I burst into tears while reading this. My job has me working from 8:30am to 7:15pm all week. I barely have time to breathe, but I know I probably need to see someone.

[Hidden in reply to Magic214]

Awww 😊 I know how it feels when you feel so alone and then people on here just give so much love and care it’s like there’s some light again in life xx at least that’s how I felt anyway x

Wow that’s a lot of hours maybe you’re overworked! Is there anyway you could try to look for a job with less hours? No pressure x

I honestly think counselling will help you so much. I never thought it would help me but it just organised my life and mind for me .. that’s the best way I can describe it x they even offer over the phone counselling too (if you’re in UK not sure about others countries)

Make an appointment with your GP x take that first step in your own time and see what happens x

You’ll see on here there are 100s of people feeling the same.. and I hope you find some comfort in that x

Keep us updated my friend 💕

[Magic214 in reply to Hidden]

Absolutely! I want to feel like I have control over my life and my emotions. I felt like the first step was looking for a new job....but sometimes taking care of myself is overwhelming. Thank you for the tips& as I go through my days, I will come back and read this to help me. I will keep you all updated. Thank you for being my friend. ❤️

[Hidden in reply to Magic214]

You’re always welcome x 💕

[FightorFlight11]

Please don't give up. Many of us have been exactly where you are, but we are all still here and fighting. Any time you need to talk please reach out. This site has been a help for me.

[Magic214 in reply to FightorFlight11]

Thank you FightorFlight. I promise I’m trying really hard not to. Although my reasons for wanting to stay seem vague, I know I have some and I want to overcome the pain I feel everyday. I’m glad I’m not alone in this battle, because that’s all I’ve ever felt. I already feel connected to the people here and I want to be and conquer these obstacles with everyone. Thank you for your kind words.

[FightorFlight11 in reply to Magic214]

Its brutal living day in and day out in pain. People who can't understand often think people like us are weak, but it is the exact opposite. Everyone in here is a true fighter, including you.

[Hidden in reply to FightorFlight11]

If you set yourself goals and strive to achieve them then you wont live day to day, you will have things to work towards and aim for.

Most people with anxiety seem to stay in the one place and don't think of moving forward. If you don't plan ahead then you will be in the exact same place everyday alongside your anxiety, thinking the same thoughts in the same way.

you have to get your brain to change, get it away from the same thoughts everyday. Your brain is there to fill, teach it a different way of thinking where it is stimulated.

Move forwards!

[Lindsey14]

Your life matters, feel free to message me if you need to talk❤

[Magic214 in reply to Lindsey14]

Thank you Lindsey. I’d appreciate that. Talking on this has really saved me. 😢 The thoughts were bad. But you all have been so kind.

[Lindsey14 in reply to Magic214]

Im so glad this community has helped❤ just message whenever you need to

[Misfit23]

I am in awe of your bravery to share this. I've been writing posts and then discarding then because I lose my nerve. Hang in there. I know it's a cliche but hang in there. Remember you're not alone and I'm here if you need to talk. ❤️

[Magic214 in reply to Misfit23]

Don’t lose your nerve! I see we are all here to support one another as we try to overcome these battles. Thank you Misfit, it took a lot to express it especially when I don’t tell anyone. When I’m alone and stuck in my head, I attempt things bc I let my circumstances control me. I already feel like I don’t need to do that bc of the support I’m given here. I truly appreciate you being here for me and I’ll make sure to do the same for you!

[userkls1996]

Hello Michelle, I am Kiauna! I would love to get to know you better and be here to support you if you need it. Feel free to private message me anytime and we can get in contact. I am dealing with a lot of the same things you are and having a friend to talk to always makes me feel better. Let me know if there is anything I can do for you.

[Magic214 in reply to userkls1996]

Thank you Kiauna! Absolutely I’d love that.

[Igor4253]

Your important...people u don’t realize care

[Magic214 in reply to Igor4253]

Thank you! I have to take it one day at a time to be able to remind myself that I am important.

[Igor4253]

Like me ... one day at a time

[Knowone]

Hi Michelle, are you taking medications? have you reached for help? What's going on in your life that made you attempt to take your own life? hang in there, quitting isn't as rewarding as sticking through it.

[Magic214 in reply to Knowone]

I’m on depression medication. I’ve called hotlines and confiding in a few close ppl. I don’t have time to see a therapist and I guess the depression makes me feel like I don’t want to get treatment. I feel like an alien. Like no one likes me.

[Knowone in reply to Magic214]

Have you ever thought maybe you're over thinking things? I'm an actual alien and most people don't like me, but when they need me, they're right there buggin'. I understand depression, not wanting to get help, it took me ending up in the hospital freaking out about horrible stomach cramps and constipation, to realize I was suffering through PTSD and triggering anxiety/stress. I've been depressed for a long time it wasn't until last week when I saw my transitional care doctor that I began being diagnosed, and prescribed medications, and she essentially set me up for counseling Im pretty nervous about going but i'm so over feeling depressed, anxious, and not having the right answers. Hang in there, I also too only confide in about 3-4 people.. it's not wrong, and you're not any different then any other human being, at the end of that day that's what we are, human.

[Midnightwolf1]

I promise, here, you will find support and people who understand you. This site has helped me so much and I'm so glad I have these people to help me through. I know its hard and the suicide is so difficult to deal with. I've tried to end it a couple of times in my life to. I'm just know getting over the cutting and I'm trying so hard not to cut again. I'm really at a low point in my life right now, but these people have bee supporting me through it. So I hope this site helps you. By the way, I'm Skylar or Sky, whatever you want to call me. I hope everything gets better for you.

~Sky

[Magic214 in reply to Midnightwolf1]

Hey Sky love ❤️ I do feel better on this site, being able to come back and reach out. I’m so happy that it has helped you. I’m glad you are still here Sky. I know how you feel and the easy route seems tempting. But at least we can talk it out together instead of sympathizing later. We have to be strong and do take care of our minds. If you need me and want to talk more please inbox me. Thank you and I hope you are healing too ❤️