Life

[iriss]

I’m exhausted and I want to sleep and relax for an entire day but I cannot do that. I constantly have homework and obligations that I can’t back out of.

I miss my mom a lot. I don’t think it will get better for a long time because my heart is so heavy without her here.

I don’t have much else to say but things are hard right now and I really want a best friend or someone who actually cares. I don’t have that person.

[LovelySnow]

Hi iriss. I'm so sorry for this. I care about you even though I don't know you. And although we might not be there in person, I bet there are others here who care about you, too. Sending you a hug. 🌸

[iriss in reply to LovelySnow]

I don’t think there are people who care. Nobody shows anything remotely similar to care for me. Whenever I have problems or things to talk about everyone goes away. Whenever they need anything im always there and I’m always expected to help them

[LovelySnow in reply to iriss]

That's such a hard place to be in.

[LovelySnow in reply to iriss]

It sounds like it would be emotionally tiring to catch other people's hurt but not have anyone to catch yours.

[iriss in reply to LovelySnow]

It is. I am alone.

[LovelySnow in reply to iriss]

Does coming on here help at all?

[iriss in reply to LovelySnow]

Kind of. But it’s different than having a best friend who supports me.

[LovelySnow in reply to iriss]

Sorry I'm not more of a help! Sending you a hug and hoping you get the care you deserve. 💖

[Redfox9]

hi iriss, so sorry for your mother, If you have anything you'd like to talk about i'd love to listen. Am always there

[iriss in reply to Redfox9]

Thank you

[hypercat54]

Hi suppose you had flu or something then you would be forced to rest as you were ill. There is no reason you can't tell people you are feeling under the weather and need a day or 2 to chill. The sky won't fall in you know and the world won't come to a stop without you Perhaps if you stop being there for others so much when they can't be bothered being there for you then you would have more time to relax? Something to think about. Do you think you are a people pleaser? x

[iriss in reply to hypercat54]

I am already falling behind in school, and some of my grades are suffering already. I can’t just take a day or two to relax and I can’t take off school because then I’ll have double or triple the work that I usually have. That would make me more stressed.

I don’t ever have time to relax actually. I am trying to pull away from the people who use me so I don’t have to worry about them as much.

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I'm so sorry about your mom. I'm here to talk if you need.