I need some advice pls

[Midnightwolf1]

If you know me you know about some of my past. Well it got brought back up today. One part of it anyways. I know its not bad and could of been worse but still, it was bad. If you don't know me I'll go ahead and tell you what I'm talking about. My freshmen year of high school sucked. It was near the end of the year and I was talking to this Junior as a friend cause we was in gym together. He started to like me and I didn't really notice him. One day one of my friends pointed out that he was stalking me around school. I notice and got a little scared. About a week or two later I was tired of hiding so I sat down at one of the blechers and told ine of my friend that I just wanted to be left a lone. He made sure I was. He left and when he came back with another one of my friends, they said that the kid who is stalking me said he was going to rape me... That scared me and it really didn't hit me till I got in my next class. I cried and tried to hide it but failed. My friend noticed and asked me what was wrong. I can't remember what I said but he left and told someone (not a techer) about it. After that my friends pretty much had me in protective custody I guess you can say. It got bad for me, I was depressed and blamed myself for what was happening to me. Then I started cutting.. my friends would get mad at me for doing it and it kind of made it worse. Then word got around to the whole school about it. I finally put a stop to it when stalker told the principle that my friends were going to stab him. I told them how it started and we ended it at there. Luckly for me they didn't call my parents about this.

Anyways, It was brought back up and I wanted to tell my dad about it but I don't. I tell him everything but thats one thing I don't know how to tell him. I just want him to know the reason why I was cutting so he doesn't think it was him or something.... I just really don't know what to do, its so hard for me to show my feeling and explain them... I just need some advice

~Sky

[gerg]

Denial and secrecy are very powerful. The only way to defeat them is by being open and honest. There is nothing to fear with the truth.

[pam4him]

So sorry that happened to you. You did nothing wrong. If you have an open relationship with your dad, then please share this with him. Let him be there for you and get you help with the cutting. It may help to get some counseling to help move past the feelings you are having. Cutting is a temporary relief but does not address the deep issues. Prayers for peace, strength and wisdom.