I need some advice

[Hollstein]

Hey everyone..

So.. I'm a law school student and going to uni has been one of the hardest experiences I had..

I didn't choose to go to law school, it's something that happened cause I was 17 and didn't know what to do with my life.. and now I'm here 4 years later, I'm almost finished but at the same time I don't think I'm gonna be able to do it. I don't like going there, I feel like I can't learn anything anymore.. law school is one of the triggers to my anxiety and I got depressed bc of it. To be honest most (I say most bc If i say i always hated law school, then I should never go back.. it doesn't makes sense, I'm just making excuses because I'm afraid of failing whatever I do next) of the time I fucking hate law school.

But it was given me the "opportunity " to quit and start over with something I'd like. The thing is.. I'm terrified. I've always loved music and art, and even did some design classes, but I'm terrified that once I quit law school, I'll never find anything I'll really love to study, that if I try going to uni to try design I'll fail or start to hate things I like.

Truth is.. I always did what people told me to do, and now I have to do something for myself and I'm terrified. I'm so scared that if things get bad I'll have to go back to law school and be miserable again. It's like I'm trapped on a loop were I'm always miserable. I can't see a future where I'm happy.

Pls help me.

[Dolphin14]

How much longer do you have left?

Would it be wise to finish and have that degree then go back and do something you want?

There's a lot of things you can do with that degree. You don't have to be a trial lawyer.

Then pick something you want and do it. These are all your choices to make. They are tough ones. But, life only gets harder.

I wish you luck

[Hollstein in reply to Dolphin14]

I have a year and half.. I'm failed on a lot of classes..

The thing is.. I don't think I can learn anything anymore.. I go to the classes and I just stare at nothing.. most of the time I don't know what the professor is saying and my grades sucks.. that's why I think that even if try to graduate, I won't be able to do it, I feel like if I stay, I'm gonna be there forever, not just for a year and half.

My original class is graduating on February.. I should be graduating on February..

I feel like I'm dumb cause I can't keep up with my original class, I'm failure.

[Dolphin14 in reply to Hollstein]

No, you are not dumb or a failure. Not at all.

It happens sometimes, if you are not into it you lose the drive to keep up.

Doesn't make you dumb or a failure.

You will succeed at something that you have passion for.

How are your parents dealing with this? Is there stress there for you?

[Hollstein in reply to Dolphin14]

They wanted me to continue with law school but they say they'll support me as long as I choose something soon

[Dolphin14 in reply to Hollstein]

It's good they are backing you on this.

Take some time and think about what you want to do.

[Hollstein in reply to Dolphin14]

Yeah.. it wasn't that easy to get their support though.. they had to see me having a panick attack to understand what I've been through

[Dolphin14 in reply to Hollstein]

I'm sorry. Panic is awful. Are you seeing a professional for that?

[Hollstein in reply to Dolphin14]

No, I'm not seeing a professional yet but I will soon

[Dolphin14 in reply to Hollstein]

I'm glad to hear that sounds like you need to talk this out

[Bluetj]

Wow, how I envy u. I am currently n school taking criminal justice, something I have always been interested, don't think I'll make it to law school. I think u need to make a decision & do wat's going to make u happy. U only live once, try to make the best of it, but b happy doing it.

[Hollstein in reply to Bluetj]

Yeah.. I hope you get what you want.. I tried for 4 years to be happy there but it's not for me

[ForwardBound]

I have seen the paychecks of lawyers, even junior associates. They are HUGE. If you can stick it out, pass the bar...you have the rest of your life to find your passion. Law is a great way to fund it.

[Hollstein in reply to ForwardBound]

I'm from Brazil.. things aren't that great around here.. I tried for a long time to stay for the money but I got mentally sick

[Dolphin14 in reply to Hollstein]

Nothing is worth getting sick over.

Take care of yourself.

[Hollstein in reply to ForwardBound]

I did an internship for a year and half.. the payment wasn't good.. and I worked at a court at the time

[hitbyasegway]

Coming from a home where we weren't financially stable, I would say that the benefits outweigh the bad. Like someone said before me, law is a great way to fund your passion. If it were me, I would finish the degree, find a job I like or at least don't hate, and use the money to 1. Save for early retirement and 2. Fund my passion. I would make art and music a hobby. If you want to make money doing it, maybe do stuff on the weekends. Good luck with everything. Enjoy your life. No one likes their job at some point, and they all love it at another. You will be okay. Worry about today. Tomorrow isn't even promised to us yet, so don't let it be a concern until you wake up in the morning. You will be just fine

[Hollstein in reply to hitbyasegway]

Thanks

I'm really trying to keep up with everything around here... I'm from Brazil.. so there's that.. law school isn't a guarantee of stable career anymore...