Is it normal to be suicidal for 6 years?

[Bloop1234567]

Is it normal to be suicidal for 6 years? Just wondering because i can’t remember a time where i wasn’t at least a little depressed. It started when i was around 8 and i got suicidal when i was 10/11ish

[Stilltrying_]

Hi there, no it isn't "normal " for feel suicidal for that amount of time and it is clearly evidence that something is wrong. What is your age and have you been to your physician to discuss your problem at all?

[Bloop1234567 in reply to Stilltrying_]

No lol i talked to a GP and organised a session but i gad to tell my mum bevause i was underage and chickened out because i was too scared to confront my problems. 16 btw and im too scared to tell my parents about my problem

[Stilltrying_ in reply to Bloop1234567]

I really think you need to tell someone you trust. If you trust your mum or your dad or both then you need to tell them. You say you have already been to the GP I think? ( as I just checked and found the following information which is that you are entitled to have a confidential appointment with your GP at age 16. ) Was it the follow up you needed to tell someone about?

I really think you need to share this with your parents unless you believe they are part of the problem in which case I would go back to the GP and explain this to him/her. Please let us know how you get on. It really doesn't have to be like this. You need to get yourself the proper help and you can start to get better. x

[Bloop1234567 in reply to Stilltrying_]

Thank you, but my social anxiety is just too bad and I’d feel

Really bad giving my parents more to worry about bcos the last time it got really bad both of my grandparents were really sick and died a short while after and now my other granny is going through chemo and my dad is too busy to have anything else to deal with. But I’ll probly go to the doctors when i can drive at 17 so that my parents won’t know. Thank you so much for your help

[Hidden]

Hey have you got professional help for this? X and try to talk to someone close to you so that you have some support from someone that is there and can keep an eye on you x

[Bloop1234567 in reply to Hidden]

No I haven’t got professional help for this, but my best friends know to a certain extent of my depression but not suicide I’m not sure I’d feel comfortable getting professional help because I feel like I’d just be wasting their time and I’m really stubborn and only open up to those that I’m closest to and that I have the right type of a relationship with like some of my best friends at school. thank you Xx

[faulhallen]

I think it depends on how you look at it. It is not “normal” but it is not unheard of. I spent most of my teenage years wishing I was dead because I refused to even consider suicide and I’ve spent a great many years of my adult life constantly wanting to kill myself.

These were situational issues. I hated school, where I lived, the fact that I felt different, unwanted and outcast from my peers in school, the fact that I’m the third of five children and seemed to lack any identity of my own and nobody seemed to notice or care if I was around and the fact that I was in a marriage that left me feeling isolated, unwanted, used, and utterly alone.

I won’t try and give any specific advice without knowing more, but I would look at your life and see what positive changes you can make even if they’re small. Practice some self care and don’t feel guilty about it. These are things we can all do. I’m sorry to hear you feel this way. It certainly is agonizing. I hope you can make enough changes in your life and in your mind and how you see the world and yourself that you no longer feel this way.

*edit* I feel like I should note that I was on Zoloft in high school. I never sought out therapy or tried to work through any of my feelings. I think it led to some potentially questionable decisions regarding relationships but I kept telling myself if I got through high school things would be better and there was no point. I would recommend at least considering therapy because I still struggle with some of the same issues I did from when I was younger.

[Bloop1234567 in reply to faulhallen]

I might try and talk to the school counsellor but I’m not sure lots of factors could attribute to how bad my depression is like insomnia and epilepsy and celiac disease but hopefully they’ll get better in due time

[Stilltrying_ in reply to Bloop1234567]

Good idea to talk to school counsellor. x