I don’t know how to be alone

[broken4886]

I feel like I don’t know how to be alone. I miss being in a relationship so much. I’m so lonely. I don’t have many friends. And my family doesn’t understand. I don’t feel comfortable talking to them. Spending time with them makes me feel worse because I feel like I have to keep it bottled up. I have to do the same at work all day. I feel like there’s never any relief. I feel like people only talk to me when they want something from me or it’s convenient. At my age it’s not exactly easy to find people that you can relate to or be true friends with. I just wish someone could hug me so hard or hold my hand through this till I get better but I know that’s not possible. I know I have to do it on my own. But I feel like I’m dying inside. It’s hurts so much it feels like my insides are on fire. I just want to sleep but I can’t even do that. I feel like I’m nothing. I wish I could be different. I’ve tried praying and trying to think positive. Sometimes I’m okay for a day or a little less but then it always comes back. I just want to feel loved and wanted.

[kenster1]

hi don't be feeling all alone.what about looking at it this way enjoy your own company more.have you got any single friends maybe go out some were get to meet new people who knows were it can lead.if you are really down please talk to someone it will help.

[jurnee33]

this is exactly what im going through besides im actually in a relationship that makes me feel alone. its an unhealthy relationship im in but I don't want to leave because I don't want to be alone, its the exact same with me , my family is so happy and im not so being around them sometimes doesn't make it better. I feel like im dying the nights we are at our worst and its only getting worse for me. I cry so much . I don't have any friends because I don't trust people. I stopped having friends right before I got in this relationship. I give you big props for actually being out of the relationship. you are truly stronger than me because I am having a hard time letting go. I want to feel loved and that's why im with him. he does make me feel loved but he has a really bad side too and that's what makes our relationship so bad. I promise I understand 100% the thoughts and emotions you are going through. there are nights that he left me truly alone so I get it .. it makes me want to cry for you because I wouldn't wish this feel on anyone and it just reminds me of what im currently going through

[jurnee33 in reply to jurnee33]

people will try to suggest things for you to do that they feel will help but nothing will, I understand how that feels, it just makes me see even more that people don't get it , its not easy to just get out or enjoy myself .. It only makes me feel more alone when others say that . because its not easy

[Espinoza38]

I know the feeling of being alone. I usto always want someone just to hold me or hug me. But after years of being alone and dealing with my anxieties and panic attacks I've finally came to the conclusion I rather go at this alone. I dont want to burden a partner. It would be awesome to have someone but no one really gets me. My family doesnt get me neither do my friends. But here on this site everyone gets me. So dont hesitate to msg me or anyone on here. I know I'll do my best to talk to you and I know people on here will help and talk to you. Keep your head up friend.

[jurnee33]

and I wish everyday that I was different.. but the only thing is to change you and that can happen, I did it last year, only to be broken but I did it . and im trying to work towards that again, its EXTREMLY hard, but the easiest time to do it I will say , is alone. you cannot fix you while in a relationship and if you do , you just have to work REALLY hard. and that's what im doing

[hypercat54]

I bet your family members know what it feels likes to have relationships break up! I also bet they care very much but aren't sure what you want or need. Can you tell them how you feel about missing your partner and ask them for a hug? Also ask them what helped them to get over a relationship break up. x

[broken4886]

Thank you everyone for all of your responses. It means so much to me to hear that other people understand and are going through the same thing. But I am also sorry for each one of you that you also struggle with this disease. My heart is with you. I would never wish it on anyone. And I hope that you each find happiness, peace, and answers. Just as I hope the same for myself. If any of you ever needs anything...just PM me.