i honestly dont know :/

[ugh_]

i feel like everything around me is happening too fast that im growing up so soon. im not even able to have a proper convresation with my mom anymore nd im still only in highschool. i can handle myself around others but even then if im at school i get so frustrated at times that i just wanna cry so bad i end up screaming in silence bout to rip my hair out ive been distancing myself from everyone even my own family. i cant find any ways to talk to my own mom anymore or be able to go a full day without crying atleast once because i get so deep into thinkng about things and i lose focus at school im failing my tests but i tell my friends im fine and that im doing alright because if i tell them ill just feel im annoying and that im wasting my time and i get so fed up i just wanna end my life just to restart from the beginning but who kows maybe i thought of that in my previous life but here i am unable to get through anything and just crying all the time moving farther away from all

[Hidden]

I feel you. I suffered in school too. hated it for many reasons. school always made me feel incompetent and ashamed. I didn’t really get in my head until I got out, that getting bad grades dosent make me dumb and that i’m not worthless just because I have deep issues. you’re not worthless, depression just drills that into your head.

[ugh_ in reply to Hidden]

that last sentence really said something. ive been doing so bad and my mom just gets mad at me for everything i even end up crying during my tests

[Hidden in reply to ugh_]

it’s ok to cry. whenever I had gotten a bad grade, I always tried to remind myself that I did my best to my ability and that bad grades don’t determine my intelligence. the school system is flawed and outdated so there’s lots of people who also struggle with grades.

[hypercat54]

Hi it's hard to know what advice to give you without knowing your age ie are you old enough to leave home yet etc? How old are you please? x