I want to die

[MadyH]

I have never felt like such a failure. What is the point of living if you can never make your parents proud of you?

[IheartDogs]

I'm so sorry you're feeling this way. Living your life for someone else will drain us completely. Finding a new way to live for ourselves can be renewing and rewarding. Perhaps this can be the next path for you...

[faulhallen]

I know that it isn’t easy to ignore other your perceptions of how people see you but you’ll never be happy if you do. I’m still struggling with changing how I view myself but the important thing is to never give up and learn to take pride in yourself.

Find strength in the little victories and never forget to take care of yourself every now and then.

[kenster1]

hey as long as you look back on life having done good things then you can be proud of yourself in the end that's what matters most.my dad had me down as joiner but I was everything else apart from that.in the end I made him proud for just steering clear of trouble and having a family.

[MadyH]

I cant be proud of myself if I cant seem to do anything right

[gogogirl in reply to MadyH]

Is that just you saying that? You are human.

[kenster1]

your having a bad period in life but when you start accessing support the clouds in your mind will make way for sunshine.just be patient and things will change.give yourself a pat on the back for reaching out its a hurdle of life cleared.

[MadyH]

I get enagged in 2 in a half weeks and i feel like shit because my dad is threatning to not give his blessing unless I get my shit tigether

[gogogirl in reply to MadyH]

Well, sorry about that- I hope you know you have support here- hope you can turn to another friend or relative as well.

[Hidden in reply to MadyH]

Can you explain what your dad means when he says “get your sh*t together”? It sounds like he wants to make sure you are prepared for the responsibility that comes with entering a marriage relationship.

[Stilltrying_]

I'm sorry , I don't really understand. What has happened with your boyfriend as you said you couldn't get married because he was moving to Korea in the military. The title of your post is very alarming. Do you really feel this bad or is it just a temporary anger feeling? I am confused and also get alarmed myself when people write apparently such a desperate post. Is it possible to change the wording or do you really feel that bad? If you are feeling suicidal I would suggest you contact a crisis line immediately.

[MadyH]

I am feeling that bad and I feel extremley lost and life isnt worth living. I will see my boyfriend off to Korea then I would like to end all of my pain

[kenster1 in reply to MadyH]

hey come on how will your boyfriend feel and your family.is it south korea?im sure all is good in the south.you have to contact a helpline if your needing urgent help.just google up local support Samaritans anything even phone a friend but please access some sort of help.think of all the heartbreak left behind your whole network of family and friends left devastated.you are worth it and worthy of support.we are here for you as well.

[broken4886]

I understand. I feel that way too. Except just in general about everything. Once I figure out what to do to feel better I’ll let you know.

[writingforjoy]

As a mama, I have made the mistake of wanting to 'help' my kid so much that he felt like he was displeasing me or I was finding fault. This is a brand new understanding for me.

It was not my heart or intent at all. Sometimes someone's actions or words, are not what they feel about you.

I understand the feelings of hopelessness. If you are feeling hopeless please ask for outside help, or turn to someone you trust.

I do know you have a plan and a purpose in this life! Some people don't know how to be proud. It is not a reflection on you and the fact that you can be called to bless others and inspire others. I know we want it most from our parents, but they are a small drop in the bucket of all the people we can impact.

I pray that you find the peace your heart needs, the truth of how valuable you are and a confidence to press on.

What do you do that you find joy in? I paint and write.

[MadyH]

I write and I read I am trying to catch up with school work then while he is is gone i plan to go to college and have a job but I want to stay out of the partying stuff so id like to find a hobby.

[writingforjoy in reply to MadyH]

Have you started a blog? Maybe writing to help others in their journey can inspire you as well plus I heard blogging can make money. This is why I started my blog years ago, not that many read it, but it has released so much in me.

School work is a lot in itself! So don't be too hard on yourself. It takes much energy.

Music has been a tremendous outlet for me as well. I can't play anything but I sure do love listening and singing to worship music.

I pray just the right people and hobby comes into your life at the right time. I am currently writing a fantasy novel...but it is taking me forever !