Tough days

[Lynseyhot]

I was at my consoller yesterday and I told her for the first time that my brother abused me as child it was very hard at moment can't cry about it nothing comes out at the moment I feeling very numb at the moment just don't know what why to feel about why couldn't I say this sooner why I left so long tell anyone

I can't tell my family about I told them about the other guy and never belived me about just telling me get on with it they never belive if I tell them what my brother did to me because he is golden child growing up was all ways believing all the time but when I say anything I never believe me plus all my family would stick up with him plus I wouldn't have place to live if I decided to do something about it

[fauxartist]

We do become numb because it's our mind and body's way to cope with such horrific trauma.....we shut down because it's just too painful to feel. You were incredibly brave and courageous to reach out in therapy .... please stay away from wanting acknowledgement from your family.....they are toxic to give you that kind of dismissive response..... and some day.... I hope you can confront the goldenboy on your terms, one way or another.....but that day also may never come or need to come.... my abusers never acknowledged they abused me and made me out to be a lunatic....and that is even more damaging. So keep your heart safe, and keep on your personal journey to heal....it will change your world...it did mine.

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Lynsey, I'm so proud of you! I know that numbness, too. I wouldn't worry about telling family yet. Spend some time wrapping your head around it in therapy. Fauxartist said it perfectly, "You were incredibly brave and courageous."