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[SunnyTomorrow22]

I'm not sure how to start or what I should say.. Here we go.. I feel alone all the time. I have no outlet. I have no ability to provide for myself or my family any longer. I have become a burden on my husband. My body is broken. I have become useless, over weight, and angry.

[Hope4me2018]

I have been in this place and let tell you it’s hard to get out of this frame of mind and rut! You have decide to fight! The words you speak are powerful for one. What do you want for yourself? You can’t help your husband or family until you help yourself and that starts with having something to make you feel better about yourself. What makes you happy or use to make you happy?

[SunnyTomorrow22 in reply to Hope4me2018]

Everything that makes me happy I am physically unable to do due to my back injury

[Ironj]

Hello Sunny you now have an outlet with very understanding people. We are all in some way going through the same or similar situation your going through.

1. Why do you feel you can’t provide for your self ?

2. Why do you feel you a burden to you husband ?

3. You state your body is broken , in what way ?

4. Why do you feel useless ?

5 . I think a lot of us are overweight and in most cases it’s because of how we feel inside that makes us run down and not have the energy to do much. With the proper therapist thing do get better.

6. Anger goes with the anxiety, depression.

Best wishes John

[SunnyTomorrow22 in reply to Ironj]

My back went out last year at work. I haven't been able to work since. I can't walk far, I fall, I can't lift anything, etc. I was a very active person before this. I am a burden to my husband because now he has to work 7 days a week then come home and do everything that I can't. We were supposed to be a team and now he's doing everything. I have to pay for my own treatment because work comp said my back is bad because I'm over weight and I am a former smoker. The little progress I do make at physical therapy ends up going backwards because I can only afford to go twice a month. I came off my depression medication because we can't afford them at this time. I was doing pretty good off them until now. I feel useless because I really have no use. I make a good couch warmer. My counselor moved away, and at this time I really can't afford one anyway.

[Ironj in reply to SunnyTomorrow22]

Sorry to hear of all the issues at hand. Have you tried catholic charities for counseling that’s Free based on income as well as medical help also based on income.

As far as the way you feel about having your husband doing most if not all the work around the house. I’m sure it’s hard on him but he can see your having problems and I’m sure loves you like no other. That may not help how you feel but it is what it is and maybe at some point you will get the needed help and get better. Look for outlets as I suggested, you’ll be surprised what you find. As far as being over weight it’s all about calorie intake even if you not mobile you will loss weight by counting the calories. Nothing I said hear is easy other then you reaching out to a catholic charities for help or asking them where to turn they will have the answers. Best wishes John

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Hello Sunny!

Welcome! I’m glad you’re here so you have an outlet and you’re never alone! It would be helpful for you to change your current outlook. Realize that you’re not broken or useless...that’s your depression telling you lies. You’re none of those things! You’re outlook needs to be full of positivity, letting go of negative and angry thoughts/feelings. You need to practice doing this for your healing process. Think about how grateful you are for everything. Positive thoughts and actions would really help you. You could help someone less fortunate than yourself. Self-pity flees when helping someone else! Think about your options, because you have some. I’m really glad that you’re no longer alone!

[wildhoney1214]

Hey!

You know what helps me? Listening to Louise Hay affirmations. There are plenty on YouTube. Whenever I feel down on myself or just need a pick me up, I go straight to her. I sometimes find myself crying listening to them not because I’m sad. It’s because what she says is correct. We are all loved and our souls need healing sometimes. Trust in that you are LOVED AND NEEDED. Hope this helps you and good luck on your wonderful journey!

[SunnyTomorrow22 in reply to wildhoney1214]

I used to do Paul santisi meditation. I could try that again