I hate when people say "pray about it," I believe in God BUT just sitting on my butt and waiting for things to change will not help.
I realize I have to change the way I think. I also dislike people pushing there advice on me. I have this guy friend who is homeless, have 8 kids, work as a dishwasher; always push his advice on me telling me I have to leave my boyfriend , leave the house, quite my job.
so yes I am not happy with my boyfriend. WE don't have sex he wont touch me or look at me. He like big girls when we meant which was online, I was 300lbs. I Have a svt heart condition, diabetes,and more health issues. so I loosed weight. now im 165 he will not touch me. its not like im skin and bones. we have a house together. He have two bad ass boys. One leave with us and the other part time.
Im a Certified Nurse Assistant. I hate the job. Nurses and patiences treat me like shit. so yes i am not happy in my career. Im in school but could only take one class at a time because im paying out of pocket. i cant get loans because of my credit score.
I feel stuck.
Back to the friend(T). I had to stop talking to him because everyday he would yell at me and say " your dumb clearly he's cheating on you, clearly he dont want you. I'm sick of you complaining about ur job, ur life. you make more then me. You make $15 a hour I make 10 a hr. You should sell the house. Sell ur broke as car." the last time we talked he said "pray about it!!!!!!" and hung up the phone.
if I did all of that whats my next step. I don't have family to fall back on. If I leave him I would have to get an apartment and be alone. I LOVE THIS HOUSE
I have a plan it just a matter of time. so ill finish school in 5 years with bsn and get a better job. work getting my health together. work on my relationship and if hes the same then ill leave.