That "almost just a wreck" feeling...It never ends for me!

[ActressAnxiety]

I honestly feel like life is against me. If for just one moment things start looking up, the next thing that happens will be bad. My doctor says I have GAD. I get nervous and panicky about everything, even going to the grocery store. So you can imagine what my like has been like this last year, when our farm went bankrupt and we had to leave and literally move away, my mom became homebound and I am her only caretaker, my work load increased when they fired three people and left two of us to do what was taking five people to do. I have two teenagers. My husband continues to farm for someone else. If you don't understand why this is stressful, it basically means I am a single parent. I was actually on Lexapro and it worked but I gained 45lbs. and couldn't shake the depression of feeling so bad about myself. I went on keto and lost about 25 of that so my depression is better, by everyday I suffer with crippling flight of fight sensations hundreds of times a day. By the end of the day I feel like I've been hit by a truck. I am so tired of this. I can't quit my job. I can't not take care of my mother. What do I do?

[b1b1b1]

I don't know what you should do. You are between a rock and a hard place. I understand this because I am in a similar position, although the reasons are different. xxx

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Are you still on the Lexapro? Are you in therapy? Have you tried Xanax? How is your sleeping? What has helped

me is walking, going to the pool, having a therapist, working the 12 step program in codependents anonymous, praying and reading spiritually inspiring sermons and talks, talking with friends, lexapro, ambien for sleep, journaling.

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What's your family's attitude to your situation? Can your kids help with grandma? Is mom's mental capacity such that she understands she may have to see about other than family care options?

The stressors need to be dealt with or....you know....if nothing changes..nothing changes.

[LaPetiteGen]

Oh love, I'm so sorry to hear your struggle. I can understand why you feel like you are stuck between a rock and a hard place and the stress of it all feels so overwhelming. It sounds like you've sought help through professionals and medications. Have you considered exploring things you can do for just yourself to help you with stress relief, relaxation and focusing your thoughts on positive things? When I feel like I'm about ready to go over the edge, I have to stop & remind myself that my thoughts & actions impact me physically, emotionally and even spiritually. Sometimes taking time for just yourself can help you refocus & rejuvenate. For me, I love to take a hot bath & listen to relaxation music, do a 15 minute yoga video (great free ones on Youtube) or simply go for a walk to clear my negative thoughts, pray & brainstorm positive solutions to my problems. Getting some exercise/movement in my life & trying techniques to move from hopelessness to hope can make all the difference. Praying you find positive solutions to improve your situation.