I hate that nawing feeling in the pit of my stomach! It truly is one of the worst. I've suffered from depression and anxiety for a long time

[Elsmum1980]

Worst feeling in the world!

[fauxartist]

It is a horrible feeling....and your really in the right place to talk and share about it. It used to feel like I had this hole in the middle of me that I needed to fill with something, but never quite knew what that was, so I tried everything.....well almost everything.....and they were all just quick fix's....nothing lasted. Then I got help in understanding about this disease and how you can feel sad and like your in the pit of despair when there seems to outwardly, absolutely no reason why you feel like that....you just do. It's because it's a chemical imbalance in the brain, it's a disease, it's not your fault, you didn't do anything to cause this. And there is no cure. It's like if you had heart disease ....you learn to manage and maintain coping mechanisms to deal with it. Some people like myself have ebbs and flows of emotion, and it used to be big mood swings...and it was a roller coaster ride from hell. But I got into therapy, did some group work over the years, and now am on a low dose of an SSRI to help with the emotional swings....it does not completely stop them....I still have the lows....I just am able to pull back out of them quicker, and I don't look for reasons why I felt that way, I knew it was just this disease. Sometimes you do have other issues in your life like trauma, abuse, neglect, death and loss...and with depression pre-existing...it does make it harder some times.....

I'm glad your here, and would say it helps me to read others posts and comments to help me understand more about how others deal with this disease...and people get to know you ....they are unbelievably good and kind hearted people here.....

[Sprinkle1 in reply to fauxartist]

Hello, What a lovely detailed reply, it helped me, I am suffering greatly right now from anxiety and also depression. My psychiatrist has me on Gabapentin and two anti depressants, I was poisoned earlier this year by an idiot who did this to me. It is hard to deal with as it does not leave me, I have Never felt like this in my life, I have had anxiety and dealt with it, this has me paralized. Thank You for writing, be good to yourself. Sending Love & Hugs Sprinkle 1...... xx oo

[fauxartist in reply to Sprinkle1]

what do you mean you were poisoned....please explain....as this sounds like an awful experience....what happened....

[Sprinkle1 in reply to fauxartist]

I was having really bad depression, the practitioner put me on one powerful drug after another in a short period of time. They built up in my brain. After my therapist got me to a psychiatrist, he took one look at all the med's and said 5 of them had to go now. That was back in June. So be careful who you trust and do not let them overload you with drugs. As I said the Gabapentin is none addictive and has to be adjusted to the right dose, to avoid side affects - I am sure you know all drugs have side affects. Hope this is of help to you. Sending Love, hope and hugs. Sprinkle 1 ...... xx oo

[Agora1 in reply to Sprinkle1]

"5 of them" omg I'm so very sorry you went through that. x

[fauxartist in reply to Sprinkle1]

It's just amazing isn't it how we have to be our own advocate every step to the way in our recovery. And of course professionals don't like being questioned. Thankfully you did get away from them....now you can start to work on your stuff and not be drugged out, what jerk's some of these doctors are.

[Sprinkle1]

Hello, I feel for you, I am going thru a really hellish time with constant anxiety, I was poisoned earlier this year by an inept practitioner. Thru the help of my therapist I am seeing a psychiatrist, he is trying to clear my brain of all the drugs that were put into me. He has me on Gabapentin for the anxiety, talk to your Dr. this is a non addictive drug and a know a few people that take it.

I hope this is of help for you. Talk to us here we will try to help you. Sending love and hugs. Sprinkle 1 ....... xx oo

[Elsmum1980 in reply to Sprinkle1]

Thank you I appreciate the advice. I'm only on 2 different meds for my anxiety and depression. I'm allergic to Gabapentin found out the hard way, and I don't even remember any of it but it was bad! It really makes it hard to trust doctors when it feels like they are out to harm you even though they didnt know what would happen. So in a way I kinda understand what happened to you. I'm sorry that happened to you. I'm glad I stumbled upon this whatever it is, and I'm glad you stumbled upon me! Thank you once again for your kind words and understanding!

[Sprinkle1 in reply to Elsmum1980]

Glad I could be of help, be sure and talk to your Dr. or try and find a reputable psychiatrist. I have one and depend on his help even though I am going thru hell. Sorry you had such a bad reaction to the Gaba. I am also on Desyrel it is to help with depression/anxiety and sleep, I take it at bedtime 50 mg. It helps but it is not enough. I see the Dr. on Tue. and plan on asking for more help. Glad you came into our group, it is large and there are many knowledgeable people in it, so talk to us, we care and love you and will help all we can. Sending Love & Hugs. Sprinkle 1.... xxx

[Elsmum1980 in reply to Sprinkle1]

I am trying to find a good psychiatrist I've been to more than I can count, just haven't found the right one or a good enough one to help me just get by. I don't know if I'm just being picky or if they really do suck around here! Some of it has to do with me having an associate degree in psychology (I never went back to finish). Anyway I do talk to my regular Dr he is the one that put me on Celexa 20mg it helps but I really feel it needs upped. I'm also on klonopin to help with my anxiety and it helps me to relax enough so my pain pills help, also to help me sleep at night. A lot of my problem is having these awful immune disorders that nobody seems to understand about and my life has turned inside out and I've lost so many friends over the last couple of years because I don't get out enough and I guess they just weren't real friends to begin with, because unless I go to them then they don't have time for me. It really sucks getting sick to find out the truth about so many people!

[food_way]

dear friend, my heart goes out to you. Thank you for your honesty & your courage to face your feelings. I'd encourage you to share your feelings with your family members & close friends so that they know how to be more empathetic & support you. Please let your doctor know about your situation and also seek counselor for help if you haven't already. Your doctor can check your physical side (e.g. hormone & thyroid levels) and counseling can support you on your emotional side. I'd encourage you to tackle it both ends. My husband has depression for 10+ years and it took me some years to comprehend & understand the impact of depression. We face it with counseling, medical treatments and lots of prayers. As a person of Christian faith, we seek the Lord's comfort & guidance in every step. Please don't walk this journey alone friend. There are many women's group and resources out there. Check out your local libraries or churches too...big hugs & prayers to you.

[Elsmum1980 in reply to food_way]

You are really kind! Thank you so very much. I have been looking into groups lately as I feel that may be a good route for me to go right now. It would be nice to meet others that have a similar situation like me and be able to share with others and know they know exactly what I'm going through.