Mothers are sacred

In that state of mind it's impossible for me to say how im feeling but here's the thing, with mom i don't have to. It's okay for me to cry, or get anxious when i feel like im losing control, i can break and she'll be there putting me back together again and again, im really not doing well, last night was the first time i raised my voice at my mom, i called her selfish for wanting me to keep living when i don't want to be here, telling her that breathing hurts and the guilt of not wanting to cause her pain has been the only thing stopping me from committing suicide these past few days. So yes my mom is sacred and i am loved unconditionally with all of her heart, that same heart that is keeping me alive, afraid i will break it. Next week they will decide if i get to stay home or go away again. This will be my fourth time in a mental hospital

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Those places are not for everyone, i was forced to stay in one and hated it i hope you get better and don't have to go away

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We'll see what happens, i don't mind going, i just want help

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Im sorry you had a bad experience but there are some who have amazing people willing to help

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We all need to do what's best for us, our mental illnesses tend to send us to the edge of the cliff what matter is you're getting help before it is too late, best wishes xoxo

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Thank you

[Sillysausage234]

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Thank you

[melbrown]

Sending you so much love & hugs beautiful Danielle 🌻 I'm feeling the same pain, fear too. We are loved & needed & important. We deserve joy... Your friendship is precious to me. Babe we are warriors we can do this...

[Starrlight]

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🌻🌻🌻

[yongkang24]

Hey Danielle , I’m really sorry. I wish I could give you a big warm hug at this moment. I just wanted to say you are lucky to have your mom to understand and support you, for me I couldn’t even open up to my family about my depression and anxiety. When you have depressed thoughts, learn to interrupting those thoughts with some other things. And remember you and me are not alone, we have millions of people going through depression. Please please please....... don’t give up.

A lot of love for Danielle! ❤️❤️❤️

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We would miss you here too! What are we chopped liver? To whom shall we go for our Newfoundland story fix?

[Marshall64 in reply to Hidden]

Or story about fighting to the death for a cupcake. A true classic..

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Lol definitely a classic

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I remember that one. It was epic.

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I would miss the funny videos

[Marshall64]

Wishing you the best Danielle in whatever happens..

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I appreciate it

[cruin]

You have a very special mom. She loves you unconditionally! Not everyone has a mother like that. You are very lucky. Think about what it would do to her if you commit suicide. Keep fighting those feelings. She would be heartbroken. Love and hugs to you. ♥️

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Thank you and im getting help to get better

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Sending you love, Danielle. I know all too well exactly what you’re going through. I have a mother who also takes care of me like I am a little baby & I am 26 years old. She’s one of the reasons I’m staying alive too. If you think you need to go back to the hospital, then that’s what you should do. I was forced to go after my suicide attempt & I stayed for 90 days. It changed my life & made me want to keep living. I still have thought bad nights where things don’t ever feel like they will get any better, but I know that eventually everything will get better. You’re a beautiful girl with a wonderful future ahead of you. We can get through this, girlie. I’m here rooting for you every step of the way. Don’t ever be afraid to message me if you need someone to vent to. Love you. xo