Thoughts

[Sunflower1013]

Take me back to when I didn’t know how fucked up the world was.

I was caught up in my own little wonder world of happiness.

It seems so far away.

You can’t be happy , but then you aren’t allowed to cry.

I’m fearful of what’s to come when I turn the corner, and yet it’s such a distant memory.

Abuse of the mind , heart , soul , and skin.

The only escape was dissociating.

Where was I ? Lost beyond belief.

Not aware , and now it’s clear of the darkness that hangs over my existence.

A glimpse of hope , seems to flicker like a candle that’s almost burnt out

Medication , therapy , work , no change

Despair still follows me.....

what’s my motivation to keep going ?

I feel like I’m merely existing and not at all living

I don’t even know what it feels like to just LIVE

Living for me was a fantasy I created a long time ago and now that fantasy is long forgotten about

[TakentheL]

This is beautiful and heart wrenching

[gogogirl]

Well, decades ago before hi tech- the world seemed so much simpler!

[Shadow123-]

Hi I'm Shadow. I just had to let you know your post affected me in such a positive way it really struck a chord with me although I am still fighting the good fight !!

Thankyou so much for sharing this- I shall read it when I feel bad !!

Love and peace

Shadow