I was so completely excited and ready to begin my internship scouting and to reach out to agencies. Now, I am totally overwhelmed and I haven't even begun to search! My anxiety causes me to be immobile in these situations; it has happened many times before, I don't know why I thought anything different would happen. My anxiety paralyzes me, and historically I procrastinate or pull out of the situation/decision. I convince myself it's dumb and I don't care, so that if I fail or it doesn't work out I won't be effected.
This internship is important to my self-esteem and academic career. I have a month to find a place to intern at, and I'm not sure if that is enough time or not. I suppose if I am having that difficult of a time, I could visit my campus and speak to a counselor or career services rep and they could help me. I need to reach out for help more, I am just so stubborn and closed off.
Today, I will try to make a small goal of e-mailing 3 agencies. I'm not sure if I want to make phone calls yet, but e-mailing is doable and I can use the same template for all 3. Wish me luck! <3