Giving up

[Lindsey14]

I really feel hopeless and overwhelmed rn. Im so tried of not feeling real and not myself. I want the old me back, i cant handle the me of right now. I feel crazy, like ive lost my mind and all common sense. Im distant from those i love and i dont enjoy much anymore... im afraid there is no end, that im losing this battle....

[Hidden]

Clouds are a barrier of strength that one must discover in order to prepare your own future and others so you must travel through a journey to regain the you

[hunter4ransom]

There is an end and you aren’t battling alone Lindsey. I promise. I’m going through terrible anxiety attacks lately that alter my perspective on life and rob me of any joy or hope at my lowest moments. Mornings are the worst. There is hope, help, and tons of love and support here. I think i often I find myself saying exactly what you posted .....”I want to be my old self again. I can’t stand this crazy anxiety ridden person who has taken over.” Mental illness sucks! Unless someone has had it or is experiencing it, they have no clue how painful and sick it makes us feel. Have you thought about reaching out to your doctor? Do you take medication? Do you have a support system? A lot of us here came here because we felt very alone and isolated and abnormal. We are normal people capable of joy, happiness, health of mind, acceptance, friendships, and freedom from these horrible painful feelings that haunt us. We are here for you. You can chat with me anytime whether it be to vent, a shoulder to cry on, or just a friend to help calm you. ❤️

[Lindsey14 in reply to hunter4ransom]

Thank you so much♡♡

[Rosalia1]

I’m so sorry your not alone

I feel the same 😢 wish I could help

[Vannessa44]

Your not alone I wish I can go back to feeling like my old self too I'm going crazy rn crying cuz of the shaking and feeling weak and for some reason have pains in my throat it's already been 27 days going through this and i feel so depressed I feel like giving up rn foreal but I'm trying really hard to live through it I hope me and you and everybody going through something gets better I really do 😞👌

[Lindsey14 in reply to Vannessa44]

I hope so too♡

[ReardenSt33l]

I feel the same way. I’ve been feeling this way for 3 months now and it’s awful. The only good that comes from this feeling is self reflection. It’s great to reflect on who you are and who you are going to be. Adding positive activities into your life might be good. I’ve started up yoga, meditation, and regular workouts and physically I feel much better (still working on the mental part)

It’s through adversity that we learn the most about ourselves.

[Lindsey14 in reply to ReardenSt33l]

Thank you♡

[mirai]

I've spent the last two years feeling exactly like that. Like the me of right now is a hollow shell, and the real me is dead. There is an end, and you won't lose if you keep trying to reach it. For me, getting to the end means taking medication. I started 6 months ago and it only took 3.5 months to start feeling like myself every now and then. If you feel like you're completely lost, there are two things that you can do right now that will change that - go see a psychiatrist, and then go see a therapist. Even if they aren't sure how to help you right away, that's fine. That's how the process goes, you try doing different things to get better and you gradually get closer to the right one. And psychiatrists and therapists are REALLY good at helping people go through that.

Don't give up. The old you is not dead.

[Lindsey14 in reply to mirai]

Thank you very much

[maaslider in reply to mirai]

Nice post of being hopeful and your message that one can’t give up because that “old self” is there for all of us! A little help and work and the hardest- patience and it’s true that it’s still in us and accessible! Thanks for posting that! M

[maaslider]

Hi Lindsey,

I wanted to reply to your post- I felt like I was looking at a post I had written and somehow forgotten. I’m also an RN and am struggling with the fact that I’ve found myself so far from the “old me” and Never expected to find myself in this version of me I can’t accept. I’m distant, don’t enjoy all the things I used to either. How long have you been feeling this way? I left nursing for a time as I didn’t find it a very caring,supportive environment. Could this have any part in the start of this? Have you tried a Psych or therapist? I finally did and it has help level out the feelings of crazy,out of touch with myself. I can’t say I’m cured and it’s a daily effort I think more than any meds I take tho I finally found one I think helps. But please don’t think there is no end and there isn’t any help for you! It appears there are many of us posting here who have felt the same and there is good advice as well. If you can start trying one thing you used to enjoy and spend a little time each day with it,or pick up something new you’ve thought about trying before! Keeping forward momentum is important,that said obviously we all have a day we feel we can’t. Don’t dwell on that but feel empowered and that you’re taking control again on the days you are able to do something you enjoy and focus on that accomplishment and a step toward “old you”. Hopefully you have family and friends- you always have this group to feel and can see you are not alone at all! You can do this, don’t be afraid to get help as I was for so long and let the small steps be positive and not feel negative or frustrated that “old me” doesn’t come back right away but can and will! I’m routing for you and everyone else that posted the same feelings on here. Hope today is a better day than yesterday! Maggie

[Lindsey14 in reply to maaslider]

Literally thank you so much♡♡

[morant2]

You are not alone! I feel the same way, take it one day at time or even 1 min at a time you got this

[Lindsey14 in reply to morant2]

Thank you very much

[maaslider]

Hi Lindsey,

Just wanted to check in and see how you were doing? Have you taken any steps toward finding “old you”? A therapist, psychiatrist? Like I said I resisted for years and those are lost years and I’m too old to lose anymore years!! I went thru many meds and and am on 2 which really seem to help. For me tho,pills can only do so much, the rest is on me. I’ve found a friend I hadn’t seen or spoken to in 32 years ( my first boyfriend actually) and we talked some and met up in April and it was if maybe a year had gone by. No awkwardness or weirdness, def only friends- nothing romantic at all, we just still love all the same things still. Anything big,loud,fast,chromed and have nearly the exact music playlist! So that has helped tremendously and we have horses in common so I’m riding more which is really my real love that I had stopped doing very much. I had Messengered him 6 yrs ago and he replied as he just saw it with so much excitement and enthusiasm- so you never know where you’ll find people that can help point you toward “old you”. He doesn’t let me get away with anything like “I’m not sure “ and def “I can’t “ he calls me on any of those negative or feeling like I can’t do things - he makes me think and act like “old me” . So I hope you’re making progress, I truly hope so! Your post really stunned me and made me think I wrote it ,it was so exactly like me, and you’re an RN as well! Please let me know how you’re feeling/doing! I truly want to know and I’d like to help in anyway- ask anything of me, maybe we can chat outside of here if that helps? Really,anything- just ask! And maybe read all the posts again,there were lots of great ones that hopefully inspired you! K, I always write too much, sorry- I’m not perfect and THATs been very hard for me to think,accept and say/write for All to see! We all struggle but doesn’t have to be alone! Hope to hear an update!!! Ttys I hope- M

[Lindsey14]

I recently flew back home so im better. I also got a new med

[maaslider]

I’m very happy to hear that!