I'm having alot of anxiety and my thoughts aren't straight. It concerns the guy that pointed a gun at me over a week ago
Part of me is so mad and the other part of me feels sorry for him. It's like a war going on inside of me. I am so anxious, my anxiety is terrible. I'm having trouble eating and sleeping. I know I have to get ahold of myself, but I'm having so much trouble. I can't let this consum me. Just having so much turmoil in my mind.
Boy totally understandable how you are feeling! That must of been so so scary! If I can help you in any way...I'm here for you! Wishing you peace of mind! Big Hugs!!!
That's a very interesting conundrum....why do you feel sorry for them.....do you know them very well, or are you aware of something going on in their life to push them to such a drastic thing as to point a gun at someone.....
If that's the case....maybe subconsciously your head is working this out to protect you in a way....if your mind is trying to defuse your anxiety by having compassion for this person, and understanding that this act was not directed at you and it was just a bad decision and reaction on their part at that moment....you were just in the wrong place at the wrong time...the shock of this happening is understandable....but your also possibly working it out that it really had nothing to do with you personally. It sounds like your brain is in survival mode....it certainly could be confusing...but maybe it's a way of taking the power out of this shock, and as I was saying....defusing the impact somewhat.
That last part got me. I think I'm struggling to not give him control over my mind and my thoughts. Do I think hes a good person, in my true opinion no. I think he is very very dangerous. I'm on defense mode at all times. It is not the way I want to live my life.
Confused and anxious 
New Year and Confused
New, confused, and in need of guidance 
Confused and hurt by therapist.
Curious question and confusing. 
