Confused

[Jenna_Smith]

My heart feels so heavy and my head is so tired. Recently I have come across a point in my life where I need to make a decision, but I don't have my parents support. Its like if choose yes its something they don't want and if choose its something I don't want. The approval of my parents is very important for me so I feel a little guilty in choosing yes. I have not been sleeping well, have lost the energy to do anything, everyday getting out the bed is a major task for me so I spend most of my time on bed with my eyes shut, I have been eating more just to suppress my feeling and despite doing nothing all day long I feel exhausted and tired by night. A lot of my energy is consumed in just stopping myself from crying and curling up like a ball on the bathroom floor.

[Hidden]

How old r u? You and your health should come first. And that is part of you becoming independent of your parents. Do you have any other adults to support you getting help?

[Jenna_Smith in reply to Hidden]

Thank you so much for your concern. And yes I am trying to find help and stop this unhealthy thoughts from entering my head.

[Krakatoa1883]

Yes, I am curious as well about your age & any other adult supporters. You've gotta find someone to talk with about this and most importantly get some sleep (this coming from an insomniac). If you don't get enough good sleep, you'll feel terrible and it'll be like a vicious cycle day in, day out. Whatever this important decision is, sounds like you need to sleep on it for awhile. Good luck honey!

[Jenna_Smith in reply to Krakatoa1883]

Thank you so much. Yes I feel definitely find someone to talk too. Thanks for ur concern.

[Hidden]

I have never seen a child who did not want to impress and make their parents proud. We tend to let the love we have for them dictate what we do. Is that right or wrong? Wrong. We can love our parents but we need to make sure we remind em that they lived their lives and we live our lives. Do they mean well? Absolutely, but being unhappy bcz of them will do you no good. Of course u will feel guilty. It is however important that you do that which makes you happy. It is what makes a person happy that fulfills them. As for your health, don't allow the emotions you feel right now to ruin your future plans, that all I can say. I hope u will do the right thing.

[Jenna_Smith in reply to Hidden]

Thanks you seem to clear some of my doubts. It feels good to know there is someone out there who has a similar thinking process as you.

[teen_anxiety]

I understand how hard it can be to not do what your parents want but you know what you need so it's ok to go against their will if for a good cause. As for not sleepig well I am with you there, I have not been sleeping the best either. if you ever wanna talk you can pm me.

[Jenna_Smith in reply to teen_anxiety]

I have been sleeping a little better.

[teen_anxiety in reply to Jenna_Smith]

that is good.

[Hidden]

Hi

[DSBK2]

Hello hun, I'm way older but understand. I don't have an easy answer for you. My experience which was way back in the 80s. I was excepted to a great local university. I would need extra tutoring as my aception letter said. I was excited. My mother literally told me I wasn't smart enough and she wouldn't sign paperwork for me to go. I wish I had a triumph story to say I did it anyway. My older sister had it and has done great. Wow, my very long story here is to say as a mom, I wouldn't ever stop my children from doing what makes them happy. I will pray you have the strength to rise above anyone that would deter you! Do it for me!

[Jenna_Smith]

Well I have cleared step 1 of the process and have deposited my first installment but my parents are still trying to change my mind. I am not very sure what to do. At the end I just want to do the right thing.