Depression and death

[veronicarocks]

Why is it when I'm very depressed I think about death? I'm so tired of this depression that seems to get better, but then comes back with vengeance.

[Lyn842]

Hi! I think many depressed people think about death. Its a way out, its a way for whatever the pain is to go away. Obviously its not the right thing to do. Thinking and doing are two diff things. Now, if you're just thinking of death in general, wondering what its like, if there's an afterlife , or just plain old scared to die. Those thoughts can go away if you have Faith in God. Those who have Faith in God as our maker and creator, and acknowledge that Jesus died on the cross for themselves because of our sins, AND ask for forgiveness we can look forward to afterlife. That takes away our fears and worries. Sorry if religion/relationship with God offends you. Just sharing my beliefs and what I believe to be true; what the Bible says. It helps me.

[Hidden]

Hi Veronica!

Well, my depression does the same thing. I seek treatment and work on myself. Sometimes it’s precipitated by a life situation and sometimes it returns for no apparent reason! When I’m in the middle of it, suicidal thoughts are always there. It’s when I make a plan that it’s time to do something. It may be time for you now to seek treatment. Everyone’s different. But don’t delay help if you need it! The trips I’ve had to the Psych hospital aren’t fun, but they have been beneficial. You can work your way through this, just take it easy using baby steps one day at a time! Hugs!!

[fauxartist]

Before I got help in therapy and now with SSRI's....when I was in an extremely dark place, especially about 8-9 years ago when I had lost everything...I didn't want to wake up, I didn't care anymore as I could not see a way out of where I was at with my life. Now...I have everything I ever wanted within reason of course...still don't have a 450SL....but I live in hope. When I was drinking a lot and doing drugs in my twenties I thought often of ending my life....just didn't want to live life the way it was....but the reality is...I just wanted my life to change from what it was...thinking of death does not always mean you want to die....you just want a drastic change in the way your life is at this time. I would have missed out on a whole world out there yet to have been discovered if I went through with it...for that I can tell you....get help....do whatever you have to do....when you’re in that place, cause death is final....no coming back from it, in the Corporeal sense anyways.

[ChristopherWisham]

I’ve had this problem too in the past when the depression would start up and get really bad I would want to end my life but would never do it cause I would think about how it would make my family feel and that would stop me I don’t think anyone depressed actually wants to die I think they just want the pain to stop and see it as a easy way to stop it. I’ve been dealing with it now ever since the depression came back but in a weird way like dying to save some one else but I still know that’s the depression and not me so that’s something we must understand is these thoughts of death and ending it all is not us but the depression something I’ve learned to do is to not act on these thoughts and if it gets really bad talk to someone about it that usually helps

[Want2BHappy3]

It's easy to think that way because you want it to Stop,

[jmgillette]

That happens to me as well very frustrating!

[Hidden]

I feel your pain and I'm truly sorry you feel that way! I too, have felt that way many times unfortunately. Worse, I tried and THEN thought of my family. I got so sick, I threw up for what seemed like hours and I couldn't catch a breath. If I hadn't sat up when I did, I believe I wouldn't have lived. It was horrible and terrifying! Living with that memory alone is really very difficult to deal with and still live with depression. But even still, I tried again a few years back. This was way worse. I was like, this is it, I'm done, im leaving. No one was supposed to be coming back but they did. I woke up a day later in the hospital and was forced to go to another for about a week. Another hell to live through. But it could have been so much worse! I could have been a vegetable and someone, my family would have to take care of me. I KNOW how bad it feels to hurt so much and "wanting" to die is inevitable when the depression gets so bad, but it's not the answer. All the people in your life love you and they don't want you to die. And I don't want you to die!

[Hidden]

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