Exhausted

[sammyc312]

All I want to do is sleep. I have no energy lately. The kids are home for the summer, which has been going pretty well. I just haven't had the energy or patience to make them help with cleaning. I know I should be making my kids help with the chores and then letting them do the fun stuff, but I don't have the energy to do chores either. Some weeks are better than others. There are times that I am on top of all the chores and the kids...then there are times that the house is complete chaos.

Working usually helps with the chaos at home. But I haven't been able to work because I am watching my boyfriend's kid, as well as my own. If it were just my kids I could take them with to work and they would be fine. But my boyfriend's kid gets bored easy and can be a bit whiny. I don't want to deal with that.

Maybe those are just excuses not to work or clean. I can't tell the difference anymore. I usually have little spurts of energy where I get some things done. But it seems like as soon as I do one or two things, my energy is gone and I sit until I get another spurt.

Pushing myself causes me to get irritable because I don't want to get distracted from what I am doing. I feel like I sound pathetic. I feel pathetic. Unable to take care of myself and my kids.

[candont]

I'd thought I'd have written this word for word. You're not alone. At the start of this year, my house was a neglected mess. I saw no need to clean these cluttered messes because I'd only be cleaning a week or two later on the same thing.

One night, while lying to myself that tomorrow would be different, I decided to Google cleaning house while depressed. I came across a helpful little site called unf**ck your habitat. There was an article about doing small things in your immediate area. Being a bed rat, I decided to clean my nightstand off. I could do that much and didn't have to leave my bed except to put something away. I'd take before and after pics to record my progress. I even have unf**ck buddies.

I am all too familiar with exhaustion but my anxiety and guilt keep me awake. I feel guilt because I know I should try harder but my will feels somewhat defeated.

I look back kn times when cleaning a whole house or taking on a large project seemed doable and wonder if I'll ever get there again.

Thank you for sharing your thoughts. It helps to know I'm not the only one. My kids are at summer camp and earlier this week, I just thought that cleaning seemed like a bad idea. I just wanted to sleep and do nothing. My therapist acted like I grew a second head when I told her I stayed inside in my room on Monday and Tuesday with intent to get out on Wednesday.

You're so strong. I know it doesn't feel like it but your post resonates heavily with me.

Thanks for sharing your story.

[Rpan]

You guys are mothers, wives and employees. Sure your exhausted. You both have so much to be proud of. I’m sure there are days when things just feel so overwhelming, it’s stressful to be pulled in all kinds of directions. Let alone to be anxious or depressed. As an outside hearing these accountings I hear two strong woman. Try making a list of things that need to be done, make sure you put yourselves first on the list. Also make sure that one day you will do nothing. Be sure you add praise for each and every accomplishment. These times in our lives are transient, our kids will grow up and we will have more time for the things we enjoy. ( we may even have to learn how to enjoy ourselves) I applaud your resilience.