No where else to turn

[rereHoffpauir]

I am new here and I am secretly hiding my depression inside and I know that is not a good thing. From experience I have learned that my family and friends don't want to hear that from me. I had no one else to turn to. I am scared for my eight year old son because I feel as if a breaking point is coming near. I do know that talking with others helps. Where do I go from here?

[01harley]

You've taken the first step. You have joined the right group. Everyone listens and doesn't judge. So u can say whatever you want. That would be a good second step. What your going through is happening to all of us. I hope by you joining, that it will take the edge off. Just getting it out helps alot.😊

[Kel12]

I am new also and feel as though we may be dealing with some similarities. My marriage is beginning to fall apart because of my anxiety/depression/anger. So, I came here hoping to find solace in someone to talk to that understands.

[StarryNight72 in reply to Kel12]

Hi Kel, I lost my marriage in part to my mental illness. Feel free to message me if you ever want to talk!

[StarryNight72]

Hi Rere,

Welcome. First of all congratulations on facing how you are feeling and having the courage to seek help despite the fact that you have been discouraged in the past from doing so. For me, when I am trying to find my way, I ask myself this question. If my child were to come to me and say that they were feeling the way I am feeling now, what would I do for them? Would I hug them and tell them there is no shame in having an illness they didn’t choose? Would I hold their hand and call the doctor and fight anyone who stood between my child and they people who could help him? Would I treat him with kindness and acceptance? Or would I ignore him and tell him he is “being dramatic”? Would I tell him to “keep busy” or that he should just “think positive”? I can tell you right now, I would never do those last two things. So, in my opinion, whatever you would do for your son, that’s what you should be doing for yourself. And we are all here to support you while you do that.

Hugs

[katiebug12]

Hi, I am here to tell you that you aren't alone and that you have to do what you can to find help. I secretly hid my depression from everyone for a long time and it just kept getting worse and worse even though I tried to tell myself that it might just go away. The truth is that it doesn't just go away. I talk with a therapist at least once every month if not every two weeks to try to get some professional help and I also am taking medication every day. This site can help you get things off your mind but you should consider making an appointment with a psychiatrist and finding a good therapist you can go talk to so that you can get better. I have the same issue with telling my family about it so I try to keep it to myself and only discuss if they ask. I have a couple close friends who I know don't understand what depression feels like but when I told them about how I had been hiding it and decided to get help they were very supportive and gave me nothing but positive words telling me that everything will be ok even though right now it may not feel like it.

So I would think that if your 8 year old needed you during a hard time, he could go to you and one day when he is older and you tell him how you suffered with depression he would be proud that his mom overcame it. My dad suffers depression too so talking to him was not as difficult as it was talking to my mom because she wanted to make me feel like it is all in my head. If your son were to come to you one day with similar struggles, he would want your help.

If you ever want to talk feel free to message me. I understand feeling like you have nowhere to turn and being at your breaking point in life is a very difficult place to be. You can get better though so do anything you can to try to help yourself because depression doesn't deserve to control anyone's life!

[rereHoffpauir in reply to katiebug12]

depression has had it hand on me since I was my sons age (8) if not younger. My family also thinks that it is all in my head and part because of my past....which is a whole other story. The only reason I was not ever able to commit suicide was because I watched my dads girl friend kill her self when I was twelve. That was the hardest part of my life. But that is well over with now I have to fight it for me. Thank you for your input and all that...it really is helpful just to know that I am not alone.

Those phyciatrist are a little over my budget that is why I turned to this site to see if it would help me.