What do I do?

[neverfearful]

I feel numb. Like I’m here physically but mentally I’m on the outside watching it. It sounds cliche to say that and totally from the movies but that’s how I feel. So disconnected and like I’ve lost myself. I don’t wanna be here I just wanna get away from everything. I’m not okay I just need someone to make everything easier but I know only I can do it I just don’t know how.

[Hidden]

it sounds like you are depressed. Have you ever been diagnosed with depression before?

[neverfearful in reply to Hidden]

I havent been diagnosed with it I’ve talked to my doctor a while back and I was on the verge of it

[Hidden in reply to neverfearful]

I would revisit the topic with your doctor. Depression is a treatable condition. In the mean time. Those symptoms you are experiencing are very common to depression. You aren’t going crazy or losing your mind. So don’t let them frighten you. Try and exercise if you can. Nothing intense. A short walk or a bike ride. Or if you have access to weights you can use them.

[Dabela]

I agree with Here _I_am it does sound like you are dealing with depression. It may be cliche but it’s real. And it’s also cliche but you are not alone. Have you ever considered talking to a therapist?

[neverfearful in reply to Dabela]

I was supposed to go into therapy for a while now because my doctor had said I was on the verge of depression but it’s gotten worse and my parents never got me into therapy because they never got around to it but I was in and out of it when I was 11-15

[Dabela in reply to neverfearful]

I’m sorry it’s gotten worse. Maybe therapy is something you can start doing again. Was it at all helpful? I know you said you were in and out of it so maybe it wasn’t but it might be something that could help now. Or maybe you could back to the doc and let him know it’s gotten worse.

[neverfearful in reply to Dabela]

I was in and out of it because of my parents. I’m very shy and don’t like sharing my feelings so it takes me a really long time to open up then just as it would start working my parents would pull me out because they were under the impression it wasn’t working

[Dabela in reply to neverfearful]

Oh, I’m sorry they pulled you out. It can be really hard to get momentum going in therapy. I wish they understood that it can take time. It’s not a “quick fix”. Especially if you are shy and have a hard time opening up. Im sorry they don’t understand that. I think it’s really awesome of you to share how you’re feeling on here. It takes a lot of courage to open up. 🙂