Holding Hands in the Dark

[Odeimindil]

I've struggled with pretty serious anxiety, depression, and self-harm behaviors all my life. In the past year, I've been seeing a therapist I really like and I feel like my meds are really helping! I've had a lot of good days lately and have been feeling resilient.

That was until I paid a visit to an old friend who I have a complicated relationship with. I think it must have triggered some things, and I quickly descended into a really dark place. I couldn't stop thinking about all my most painful moments, fears, insecurities. My sense of hope disappeared. It was painful and scary because it felt like there was nothing I could do. I wanted to reach out to someone, but I felt so alone and like no one would understand. Depression is so hard to explain to people who don't struggle with it.

I'm coming back out of my dark daze, and I want to work on building a community with people who will understand. There's something so redeeming about knowing you're not alone. The darkness can be frightening, but if there's someone there next to you holding your hand, somehow it feels like it can be alright.

[Dabela]

I really relate to how you are feeling. I have been dealing with those things all my life too. And I also have a friend where it’s complicated too and it can trigger a lot of things being around them. I’m glad you are here and sharing you’re feelings and story with those of us who can understand. If you ever want to talk to someone who can relate I’m here 🙂 You are definitely not alone!

[Hidden in reply to Dabela]

Agree!! Well said