Proud of myself

[JadeRaye]

I just want to say thank you so much to everyone that took time out of their busy day yesterday and read my post . All your responses were greatly appreciated, and it made me feel better that people actually care. Now for today. I forced myself today to play with my son and to take him to the park even though doing all this and putting on my happy face was exhausting in itself . My husband and I barely spoke , but I can't be selfish and fight with him because I know the tension around us isn't good for my son. But I'm proud of myself for being an active mom today. Even though I didnt put any care into my appearance, I rarely do especially if my depression is bad . I still put on my happy mask and tried with all my strength to be a happy mother around my son. I just put him to bed, and I feel like I can take off my happy mask and I can cry if I want to . My husband and I will probably not talk for the rest of the night but tomorrow I will try my hardest like I did today to put on that happy mask even if it's just for my son. The thing is with depression and anxiety you have to force yourself , to do anything . The simplest of tasks become impossible, and you literally feel like just to be semi productive that it takes all of your energy . Hope you all have a great night .

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You tried your best, especially for your son, big ups to you girl

[old-soul]

I know It's hard to achieve balance, but I will warn you, be very careful not to allow yourself to fall into the trap of "mom" becoming your soul purpose in life. If you do, you will fail you son, actually. Certainly you would like him to know that women are more than just full time child care worker people, right?

I'm sure money is tight and time is even tighter, but you're an adult, any if you never make time for you to do a few things that are for you and you alone, your mom and dad aren't likely to plan it for you.

Even if it is 3 hours twice a week to go to a park, BY YOURSELF, or see a friend or a few friends, BY YOURSELF that can be enough to have a really positive impact. Usually stay-at-home home-maler/mom's actually DON'T get that unless they make it a "Hard and fast, non-negotiable unless someone is dying and needs one of your kidneys to survive."

Think on it. Even ONE time per week for 3,6, or even 8 hours away from ther 90+ house of full on, "Momdom," is perfectly reasonable and HEALTHY. 😁 I'm not just makimy that up, either.

[mjlitl13]

Congratulations Jade! That was a very BIG step for you and I am PROUD OF YOU!

I too suffer from depression and anxiety and I know where you're coming from!

I have a friend who once told me, that he will be SUPER happy when I can FINALLY say I am PROUD OF MYSELF!

I'm not there yet, but I am so happy to hear that you Are!

Keep up the good work!

Hugs,

MJ