Proud of myself

[Kevin160]

I was tested a few times this month, added assignments at work, exams and research at university, home and social life, my uncle died 2 days ago, it was my first time going to a funeral, which is pretty late for 20 maybe? i guess i should be thankful somehow, so yeah a bit of a heavy month, but i feel really good with the fact that mentally im feeling well, im making peace with everything, and i was surprised that i didnt really panic that much even when i didnt feel prepared for something, or felt that i didnt live up to my true potential, or was faced with something that i felt was me being way over my head, it felt like i was on a sedative, eventhough i dont take any kind of pills, but i was really calm somehow.

i guess im being kind to myself, and less judgy, im very proud of my accomplishments, im juggling work and studies, im becoming more independent both financially and emotionally, i am meeting new people, im doing alot of new things that i didnt get to do during covid, i finally feel that im actually “doing” not just “saying”.

Obviously this doesnt mean i eradicated stress and anxiety, for example i have a presentation in a couple of days and its on the back of my mind, might get really worried about it tomorrow night, but so far im at a place where im not pilling on, or adding on to my stressors, i think its the best feeling ever to be proud of yourself, i have always been an honor student, and done alot during my teenage years, but never felt proud because mentally i felt i was so weak that it always ruined it for me, everything was stressful and i couldnt enjoy anything, so it feel great to just look back and think “oh i just did that” or “i overcome something much easier than i expected” and just feel the pure pride and content.

[Fumble]

Well done Kevin You should be proud of the fantastic progress you have made over the last couple of years.

So pleased to hear this

[Kevin160 in reply to Fumble]

Its definitely not always positive, many times we slip back, but im just glad that i am finding my way each time, thank you for your support

[Agora1]

Kevin, my condolences on the passing of your uncle.Considering all you have been through, let me tell you how proud I am

in how far you have gotten. It takes work but mostly it takes a mind change

in who you are and all you have and will accomplish.

Continue feeling the pride and contentment in your life. You deserve it.

It doesn't always take a pill. It comes from deep within you. Congrats xx

[Kevin160 in reply to Agora1]

Thank you for you condolences it means so much.

It was difficult while forcing myself to get out of my comfort zone, but i wanted to be done with the bubble of me always doubting myself that im not good enough, that i will never get better etc, its been worth it, im just glad that i feel a bit more in control, especially after covid, i needed to get my life together.

[Agora1 in reply to Kevin160]

Hopefully Kevin, as the door open a little wider now, you can continue on with theendeavors of your life's goal. Living and not just existing xx

[Kevin160 in reply to Agora1]

Im trying my hardest to check down each goal little by little, so finger’s crossed

[deizi]

Thats the spirit WELLL DONE

[Kevin160 in reply to deizi]

Thank you ☺️

[newbie1956]

❤️ So happy to hear this great news, Kevin ❤️

[Kevin160 in reply to newbie1956]

Thank you so much ☺️

[Eklektik]

Go Kevin Go! You are showing brilliant resilience and have all the reasons to be proud of yourself! Being kind to oneself is not always easy but it does wonders. I'm so happy for you. Thanks for sharing your success. Kudos!

[Kevin160 in reply to Eklektik]

I definitely feel imposter syndrome when someone say i did something brave or resilient, which is why im trying to be more kind to myself, it does still mean alot thank you, im feeling good with myself though, and i think soon i will start to not feel this way.