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[saeli]

Hi, I’m new here. Just happened to stumble across this page while researching what can I possibly do to try to calm my anxiety w/o seeing a physician. Out of no where more frequently than not my anxiety will take over me, this time, tonight, my hands wouldn’t move, my heart is racing, my throat feels like it’s closing, but I’m swallowing... I’m talking to myself trying to talk myself down. I hate it because I feel like I’m going to die EVERY SINGLE TIME. I’m 20, I have an 11month old and I feel like im going absolutely crazy. Maybe I just have too much on my plate right now? I’ve experienced panic attacks a few times before but nothing compared to now. My hands will literally shake all day, and whether I’m sitting down or standing I have to be moving something. I’m currently sitting up in bed rocking back and forth, I’ve noticed I do this a lot. I feel so crazy I just don’t know what to do anymore

[saeli]

Thank you. All the stress that comes with life is just weighing me down lately. I just want to feel “normal” again. Whatever that is.

[saeli]

i know that struggle all too well!

[saeli]

Oh goodness where to begin, nursing school/cut hours/trying my hardest to keep my family together. Which leads me to loneliness, I do what needs to be done during the day but when I get home it’s just myself & my child. No type of adult interaction when I need it the most, really no one to confide in that will just listen and at least try to understand.

[saeli]

I was once told my feelings where just hurt & that may be true, I may just take it further than others. I’ve built up a wall and have to much pride now to show emotions around certain people

[saeli]

And that’s where I usually shut down. I’ve been lied too more than I count, talked to all types of ways, then expected to pretend like I’m still okay with everyone and never once have gotten a simple I’m sorry. I am an emotional person and I know this, I’ve just let multiple things continue to build up over the last couple years and now I can’t just run away bc I have a little person that relies on me. I replay things in my head over and over and bring the pain ok myself because why not just LET IT GO? I try so hard, and now I’ve gotten to the point to where I get physically sick on top of panic attacks and just feeling like I’m going to die and no one will even know.

[saeli in reply to saeli]

I’m sorry TMI.. I’ve started typing and don’t even know if I’m making sense I’ve never gotten anything out and no one knows me to judge. I’m in a small town people talk talk talk

[Zombiekitten]

I’m so sorry you’re going through this. I also found this site researching how to alleviate anxiety. I find that deep breathing exercises help me a lot. It’s hard to believe and it’s hard to practice in the moment. Deep breathing (I think it’s 5 seconds in slowly, hold for 7 seconds, 8 seconds out) I also like listening to “the anxiety guy” on YouTube and reading up on stories of people who have successfully overcame anxiety and depression themselves.

[saeli in reply to Zombiekitten]

I’ll have to look into it & try. Thank you so much. Glad you’re getting some kind of relief!