Trust issues and abandonment issues

[Ohioanxiety]

Past relationships has caused me self hurt. They made me happy and everything then next min they are screwing someone else. I’m 19 and finally lost my virginity this past weekend. I’ve been to scared to lose it until I found the one and the girl I found and gave it to was the I was hoping to marry. On the same day she took my virginity and I took hers she got a call from an Aunt Jay. She doesn’t have an aunt jay and I knew something was wrong when I asked her mom who it was and she didn’t know. Then I asked her and she didn’t say anything and turned her phone off. Turns out she was talking to my best friend and saved him under aunt jay and it has been causing me hurt everyday where I can’t breathe and I don’t know what to do. I take medicine and it doesn’t help. This girl is the love of my life! Do I forget about her and cause me more pain or try to trust her again cause she balled her eyes out and apologized for it. It’s been 5 days and she still cries about it. What do I do?!?

[CazO46]

I'm really sorry, no wonder you are hurt, feeling betrayed cuts deep. It's a difficult one, you are both young and I have no doubt in the fullness of time you would meet someone else and find happiness. That said when you fall in love it's hard to walk away. You might want to think about why she would behave the way she did ? It will hurt that your best friend behaved badly too. I think this is a decision only you can make. Trust is a hard thing to rebuild but not impossible. Use your head and your heart, best wishes