Good morning!!

[lovedogs51511]

Anyone feeling anxiety or depression I'd love to help anyway I can. I've been there and still deal with it so if you need someone to talk to I'm always available. I spent 40 years severely depressed mostly suicidal. The only thing that's helped is moving to the sunshine!!! I've had 12 shock therapies even to help. I got sober after 25 years of hell living with my alcoholism drug addictions! Only been sober 7 years on May 15. I'm just saying this cause I've truly been thru the madness of these issues. So I understand the loneliness, despair and agony of depression etc. Anyways I'm here to help anyway I can!!!😀 Hugs to all and have a great day!!

[CazO46]

It sounds like you have a lot of life experience and have lots of insight into the difficulties that come with alcohol misuse and the agony of anxiety and depression. It's very kind of you to offer your support, it is really appreciated thank you x

[lovedogs51511 in reply to CazO46]

Oh no problem. We're all here to support one another. I'm an open book so if I can help anyone it would be a blessing!! How are you?

[lovedogs51511 in reply to lovedogs51511]

I've never met so many ppl that care and take the time to help. That in itself has been a lifesaver!! I'm finally excited about life but finally at 45! All the pain and misery was hell but to actually love life now this year has been amazing. Never smiled and giggled so much in my life. I've always been miserable!! This actually feels amazing. All I can say to someone is never give up hope!!!

[Starrlight]

Why do we worry? And how to quit. This is my biggest problem right now. I panic over small things which always turn out to be fine but I make future events seem large and scary. Do we go over possible scenarios in hopes we don’t miss something that could help keep us from harm in the future? Although it doesn’t work. I am practicing being mindful in the moment knowing it will help although racing thoughts are hard to catch. Trying my best. Could use some support. Thanks

[lovedogs51511]

Yea I do the same thing. I worry about everything! The racing thoughts tell me I'm disgusting to look at and you don't deserve to go outside when I walk in the morning. Just terrible!! I can't get the racing negative talk out of my head. Severe anxiety keeps me locked in my condo. I hate it. Thanks for your message!!😀😀

[Starrlight in reply to lovedogs51511]

Oh I didn’t know you suffered like that. So sorry. It’s great that you walk in the morning. I am about to go walk myself. Hoping you have a day filled with beautiful moments!

[lovedogs51511 in reply to Starrlight]

Oh thank you so much!!! Yeah it was tough but happy days ahead😀 I'm having a horrible hair day. Too embarrassed to go out. It would be cool to walk together. I hate anxiety. Hope I can walk in a bit when the sun comes out!! Have fun on your walk 😎😎 Thanks for your message!!

[Starrlight in reply to lovedogs51511]

I think if I didn’t need to take my kids to school I wouldn’t walk these days because I feel exposed out there. But I know the exercise helps.

Yes I wish we could walk together! I hope the sun lifts your spirits 🌞

[Starrlight in reply to Starrlight]

So I ended up sprinting parts of the way. Go me! Sadly my anxiety and restlessness are stubborn today partly because I know I have an appointment later so for some reason it’s hard to relax until that is over with. I need to change that habit.

Hope you are enjoying the sunshine!!!

[lovedogs51511 in reply to Starrlight]

Sprinting is great That's awesome and yes go you!! 😀 Glad you got out. Couldn't get the courage to go outside. Ugh. Hope your appt goes great!! Thanks for the message! 😀😎😀😎

[Starrlight in reply to lovedogs51511]

That’s okay. It’s not always meant to be, the getting out. It can be so hard, right?! I just went to a park and then to get gas and had panic attacks on the road and wondered why I was out but I made it home. So frustrating.

[lovedogs51511 in reply to Starrlight]

I totally understand how ya feel. Its really hard I agree. I keep trying to get out but I get full body anxiety and freak out then come home really fast. Its very frustrating. That's so great that you made it to the park. Its a real pain cause I don't drive due to epilepsy So I have to walk a lot of places. Well when possible! I'm so glad you got out today!!😀😀 Be proud of yourself I truly mean that.

[Starrlight in reply to lovedogs51511]

Aww thank you! I am proud. Oh you get full body anxiety? What is that like? I have attacks even inside my house. What are we afraid of, really? I get afraid of people, and them rejecting me maybe, not sure. I get afraid that while I’m driving and stopped at a light that I will put on the gas and hurt someone. I get dizzy and shaky. I hope you are ok, that the epilepsy is controlled, brave lady.

[lovedogs51511 in reply to Starrlight]

Oh thank you. I don't know why we get so afraid of those things. Seems so silly but its all to real! I was just out on my balcony and the lady under me just said awful things about me and the other neighbors!!! Unbelievable!!! Talk about feeling like crap. I'm sorry but I'm feeling like absolute shit. Ppl like that are the ones that kill me emotionally!!! All my life I've been called ugly, stupid piece of shit etc. Now again. I just moved in here on April 12!!! I'm horrible already!!! Yeah I'm a lot like you. Just shaky and don't want to be around anyone especially now!!! God I feel like absolute crap.

[Starrlight]

(((((((((Lovedogs)))))))) hugs and good vibes to you. I am so sorry that happened with a neighbor!! How rude! Who does that person think they are? Remember it’s his/her problem, not you. Im so sorry you feel like crap and I hope you feel better soon. 💕 ❤️ 💗 💕

[lovedogs51511 in reply to Starrlight]

Thanks so much. Just going to ignore these ppl. Hope you had a good day. This one has been good but a bit bad. Thanks for the chit chat starlight

[Starrlight in reply to lovedogs51511]

Good for you to decide to ignore that. Thank you too for taking the time to talk with me Lovedogs!

[lovedogs51511 in reply to Starrlight]

Oh no problem. We all need someone to talk to. I enjoyed it!!! Hope to talk again soon. Have a great night!!!

[lovedogs51511 in reply to Starrlight]

Your very sweet and kind!!! Hugs