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[Cat26538]

Extremely stressed out. Had a massive panic attack at work today. Almost snapped on my coworkers. My head is so not in the right place. I feel like I’m gonna explode

[jrobertson1]

You need to take time off. I felt just the same a few months ago. I let things go too far and my anger built and built. I subsequently blew at HR when they refused to help me attend medical appointments linked to my depression. Since then things have escalated. GP changed anti depressants but dosage initially too low. Felt abandoned by my employers and also my colleagues some of whom I regarded as friends. At my lowest, after a meltdown re disclosure of my mental health problem to a senior member of staff without my consent along with another matter over which I had been promised confidentiality, I spiralled downwards. One day after a massive argument with my partner where I told him to leave if he couldn't support me over this, I took an overdose of temazepam and co codamol with alcohol. My husband found me and phoned for an ambulance and spent the day in A&E. Don't allow yourself to get to this stage. Use your anger to ask for help. I am still not out of the woods as awaiting OH report and not sure if I ever will be able to given the bitterness and resentment I feel about my treatment by management and my colleagues. Wish my initial meltdown had not been at work even if work was a contributory factor. If I had removed myself sooner, I could have avoided much of the fallout and gone back after I felt more able to resolve things which troubled me there in a calmer, more constructive manner. I beat myself up constantly about this as I have been here before and seem always to need to get to crisis point before I can take action. By then I am not in control of my actions and go OTT. Don't be like me. Get help now and dont go back until you feel you are able to cope. Take care and good luck.