Today I was reading the first post that I posted here which was almost half a year ago! I couldn't help, but wonder how far I've come. I battled the typical fibromyalgia, insomnia, and depression as well as job loss and a temporary illness. I recall being at home isolated wondering where I would get my next check from or where I would go from where I was. I felt alone socially and emotionally. Thankfully I have a wonderful family to help support me. Without them or the encouragement that I have received from this site I don't think I would've gotten far.
I started working a part time or two and decided to test the waters. I ended up not liking what I was doing so instead of settling for less like I always have I patiently waited until the right opportunity appeared. Fast forward to the present... I finally found something that is in sync with my heart and soul. I started working at a pharmacy not too long ago. The pay is not very high, but just socializing with random people and having a great crew to work with has really helped with my social anxiety and my depression. I see a lot of people that I once went to school with or worked with. Sometimes I see people that I forgot I have met. As strange as it sounds it's like watching my whole life pass before my eyes. The relations I have made along the way are all part of me and they all gather in that one place. My favorite part is making people smile and helping out the elders search for things. It's the little things like that that keep me going as a person. So I am also working as a caregiver / housekeeper for a very interesting and intellectual elder man. It's funny how much you can learn from someone much older than you. There's always something fun to do or talk about like where in the world this person has traveled the world (literally) or where he wants to travel next. We are both bonded by our love for history and humanity. I suppose at the end of the day life works like a magnet. You attract to you personalities that reflect your internal vibrations. I found this to always be true for me.
If everything works out okay I think I would like to get back to school by August. I have decided that something in Massage Therapy would suit me well. In the past I feared choosing that career because I thought it was more of a female job, but at the end of the day anyone can thrive in any field regardless of age or gender. I am opened to the idea of starting my own business and helping others with nerve and muscular related issues. As someone with Fibro I can totally relate and also I have always being told that I have a gentle touch. While I am waiting for that period to start I have already taking the initiative to get an online certification in nutrition and fitness. Within 5 months I should finally be certified and be able to use that if and when I burn out in the future.
It's like I am finally almost out of the black tunnel. It's all about taking chances and staying positive. I like to believe that I can bend my reality and create the picture that I want. As long as I stay true to myself and away from unwanted distractions my mind will be clear and my soul will be pure. I don't party when everyone else is. I sleep and read and wake early in the mornings to go to the gym. I take cold showers, mediate, and pray. This way of thinking and living has kept me going for long. But thats another story. If you made it this far thank you for reading. I would like to hear from you and get to know anything about where you are at in life. Stay a warrior friend 
Is depression purely a medical condition or is it the situation of your life ?
Why can't i adult? I'm feeling so miserable. TW just in case
Brian's Guide to Navigating the Perils and Pitfalls of Everyday Life.......Chapter 1
Mistakes ...
Another day in the life...I guess.
