Mistakes ...

[deea21]

It’s been a log time since I came outside real world

not because I was perfect or better, nor because I wanted to let others behind; but the truth is that I’m trying to raise and fight with my body, my other me.

I see the reflection in the mirror of a person who’s far from myself

That ugly delusional shadow of death

It’s embracing my soul and my power

And I find my way alone in the dark and I scream like a crazy for help from those people with blobby eyes who’re crossing behind me....

They look at me as I’m reborn from death and gone through Dante’s Inferno of sin and disgust, despair of an era of destruction.

Where is my father to see his model of perfection distorted in imperfection?

I’m searching utopia in dreams and failing to live in this damaged, deformed world

But nothing it’s true, it’s just hypothetical.

I need more of myself, I need more of becoming

I need to be there as much as that air that you’re breathing.

I’m craving...

Would you be ?!

[fauxartist]

very deep and though provoking images...thank you very much for sharing that....

[deea21]

The images in my head are more explicit than my words this time ... but just trying to express myself.

[Aesclepius]

Your vivid imagery and spontaneity is wonderful. But I sense the world of pain and trauma behind it.

[deea21 in reply to Aesclepius]

Thank you. It’s not as good as I want but I feel relieved while doing it. It’s lot of trauma, pain and loneliness that wants to come out. And for myself it’s the best way without hurting.

[Aesclepius in reply to deea21]

I think it would be a good idea to speak to a professional therapist about that, if possible. Talk therapy could help a lot.

[deea21 in reply to Aesclepius]

I did it lots of time. Sometimes they just laughs. And now I just can’t do it. Eventually we all have our story, we all have a burden inside even if we are all different.

[Aesclepius in reply to deea21]

You haven't found the right one yet. Look for the one in the Object-Relational or Inter-subjective kind.

[deea21 in reply to Aesclepius]

Can you be more explicit, because I was lost in your words ... whats that?!

[Aesclepius in reply to deea21]

There are different kinds of therapy- CBT, Freudian, Object-Relational, etc, each based on a different philosophy and approach.

[deea21 in reply to Aesclepius]

I understand now. Thank you. And yes I’ve done it with lots of therapists in the past....

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