Well I have been on my BusPIRone 7.5mg for over a month now. I thought I was getting better but I dont believe I am.
I am trying to go back to school and write a paper. My teacher told me my topic was too broad so I narrowed it down now I have literally wrote myself into a corner. I didnt understand the first assignment so I got a D on it when I had been making straight As but it was a huge portion of the grade. The other grade builds off it. I feel I have shot my foot off, I can dig myself out of this ditch and the paper is due Sunday.
I try to work on it but hte anxiety is so bad its making me sick to my stomach to even look at it and causing me to heave. I cant focus on the paper and freeze and cant find any resources to build on it. If I could at least feel like I could thing straight maybe I could dig myself out of this colassal hole but if I fail this paper I fail the class.
I am so stressed I am so tired. I am so tired of no one caring when I tried to vent ot my friends and family. They think im being dramatic. I am generally freaking out and don't know what to do and just want some help. But i feel no one in my support group can either provide this help or actually gives a fuck. Or they say unhelpful things like youll figured it out or you can do this how? Like can you at least explain how you think I can get this done.
I am so sick of feeling this way. I just want to lay down and rest.
Bree