Anxiety/Depression/OCD is getting overwhelming

[-sad-angel-]

this pain is becoming unbearable.

i think i need new medication. it was working great, but now i seem to always have a deep ache in my chest. i am almost always on the verge of crying. i don’t even want to get out of bed. i’ve skipped school a few times because of this. i don’t want to be around anyone at school/in public, i have to act happy, and it is a chore just to try walking around everyone day to day. i feel like i am going through all the motions.

i feel insecure and unhappy with myself. i am worried people are judging me, and i usually don’t even get things i need out of my locker, just to avoid more people looking at me.

i’ve begun to dread every day i need to be around people, the day seems to drag on. every night i dread and dread the next day. being home makes me much more relaxed. but i have to go to school for responsibilities.

it goes through my mind how i wish i would just disappear, then i wouldn’t have to go through all of this.

also, my OCD and anxiety seem to be getting worse and worse. i don’t take any medication for them, only for depression.

all of this stress from my disorders is making me so tired/exhausted, i don’t even want to do anything. i know other people have it much worse than me, but i just don’t know what to do.

my next doctors appointment isn’t for another month. i don’t know if i can make it that long.

[EmLee96]

It sounds like you need a med adjustment- is there anyway you can bump the appt up?

Are you trying other things besides meds to help yourself? Are you talking to a therapist at all? A family member? Friend?

Most of the time, the treatments for generalized anxiety disorder and depression are the same, meds and cognitive behavioral therapy, but OCD treatment is different. Do you have a treatment plan to overcome the compulsions?

Hang in there and just take it one day at a time. One foot in front of the other. You do not need to compare your life to others. You are struggling with something so don't feel bad about needing help.

[Marshall64 in reply to EmLee96]

Aren't there certain medications that are better for addressing bith depression and anxiety like Lexapro and Paxil?

[EmLee96 in reply to Marshall64]

Yes there are due to a lot of the symptoms being the same for the 2 illnesses- some people still use a combo of 2 meds, some are able to use 1. Scientists are not sure why this happens, but they also aren't sure why a lot of antidepressants or antianxieties work! Typically if your anxiety is worse than your depression you will start on a benzodiazepine and will add an antidepressant of needed. It all just depends on how you react to them.