I want my love back

[romiza5715]

I recently loss a special person from speaking before thinking. And now she won't talkto me. I wrote to her tEllington her that from the monet of our first kiss that I knew I was in love with her. And then went on and went over fun times we shared together and that I was still in love with her. Don't know to do, I am lost without her and want her back

[Justswimming]

what did you say? and I'll tell you if you have a shot

[romiza5715 in reply to Justswimming]

She had been in and out of rehab but we all ways kept in touch. Then fewer and fewer contacts were made and when the were the she always would ask for something. I made the mistake of saying that you only call when you need something and I was beginningto feel like I was being used. I apologized over and over but she doesn't respond to any of my attempts

[Justswimming in reply to romiza5715]

Ok so maybe you were right..addiction is no joke..I don't know how old you are but it may not seem like it now but you may have dodged a bullet...you will love again I promise...so take care of yourself and if it is meant to be it will be..the only person you can control is yourself.. don't beat yourself up..just keep busy..you can check in on her but don't beg for her to take you back

[Veg_Gal]

I'm so sorry, that must be such a hard loss. I kinda felt the same with a guy, my heart felt alive and I felt purpose when I was pursuing him, but I'm learning how a person can't be my whole world to the point I can't functions without them. Whats healthy is to grieve and let your emotions feel sadness or what you need to feel but eventually there should be a realization that there is a beautiful world out there and you still have the opportunity to experience it. To be alive, be loved, and to give love not just romantically but to even those who are hurting. Get into community and get involved in giving of yourself, love yourself during this time, find out what you enjoy and pursue that.