Feeling A Little Better Today

[Madysen019]

I can feel my meds working today. Just wish I could go to work. I miss my job. I want to go home ......

[fauxartist]

I'm glad the meds are working, and sorry your sad about work and home. I read your post about the big upset at your home, and wondered how that all worked out. It does not sound like your there. Now that your meds are working you would probably be able to go back to work,

[Madysen019 in reply to fauxartist]

I was sent off to live in New York with my grandparents. I have 6 hours from home. I didn’t want to leave but I had no other choice. Either go here or get arrested. I don’t have a way to get a job here since my grandparents only have one car that my grandpa uses. I want to go home for a lot of reasons; my job, my boyfriend, and my therapist & psychiatrist are there. I am looking into transitional living in my home state through a children’s home. I have to wait to call the woman in charge tomorrow. They only have so many rooms however. I really need the space though.

[fauxartist in reply to Madysen019]

I hope that works out okay for you...at least if anything, hopefully you can get on a waiting list...or be referred to another place that has space. Just breath, and take each thing in one thing at a time. Take care of yourself and it's going to get better as time goes by, the meds will help and you will feel better and more secure to get out there back where you want to be.

[Madysen019 in reply to fauxartist]

I just want to get back to work. It makes me feel happy when I go to my job. I like the people I work with and they say good things about me. I was being considered for a promotion. I was making good money to save.

[gogogirl in reply to Madysen019]

If it's NYC- could you try buses or trains?

[gogogirl]

I hope you can go back also. What kind of work do you have? Sounds like you miss your old life.

[Madysen019 in reply to gogogirl]

I just graduated high school in 2017 so I work at Dunkin Donuts but I love it. I get free coffee , my boss is a very flexible and easy to talk to person. I went to school with some of my coworkers. I’m well liked by those I work with and I enjoy working with them as well. I miss my job. I miss my room. I miss my town. I miss my house. I miss my mom and siblings. I miss my moms cooking. I talked to her yesterday and she said she’d think about letting me come home after a month of this “self help vacation”. I have to learn how to cope with my anger and anxiety. Turns out my panic attacks are caused by me adjusting to a higher dosage of my medication but they are intense and uncomfortable. I am in upstate NY near Potsdam, so the middle of nowhere. I do t have a car to go out anywhere. I’m stuck until my grandma needs to go grocery shopping next. I was getting my life together and happy. I just went to dinner with my boyfriend the night before and was as happy as could be. I just woke up on the wrong side of the bed that morning and didn’t know what to do but yell. I need to learn how to control my emotions better before I go home.

[BlueGirl119]

I've been in your situation. It's tough, but finding the right medications is so important. That gives me hope that you are on the right path even though you still miss work and home. I hope you are able to get back to work and return to your home soon. I'll watch for posts from you. You are not alone.