New to this website and need advise

[Tinabum]

okay so I am struggling with eating, now I don't have anorexia or anything cause I really don't like being thin and I don't find that pretty, however I don't feel any appetite and I barely eat throughout the day, and sometimes I feel like I don't deserve to eat because I didn't do anything to deserve it, as if eating was a treat, not a necessity. I also sometimes overthink stuff or randomly feel stressed for no reason and my heart starts rushing and I feel sick to the stomach and then I cry and can't breath (I once lost consciousness because of the heaving)... Is that a panic attack?

Note: I am TERRIFIED of phone calls and I will never call anyone or pick up the phone. I am also scared to tell my doctor and I don't know how to get a therapist if I can't make appointments.

[Aesclepius]

Hi,

It might be a good idea to let your doctor know about it. If you have a friend or a family member who is understanding, she can call a therapist for you.

[jkl5500]

You really need to see a doctor and get your treatment plan started. Have someone else make the appointment if you can't do it. You have to start somewhere.

Don't be afraid to tell the doctor and therapist exactly what your problems are. You won't shock them. They hear this stuff every day. This sounds like classic anxiety disorder.

Please see someone ASAP.

[Tinabum]

thanks for the advise i wasn't aware someone else could make the phonecall for me. i didn't realize i was in such a bad place

[Grace367]

Hi Tinabum,

The great thing about this group is knowing youre not alone! I also struggle with eating when my anxiety is high. My stomach will just shut down and I’ll only eat and drink just enough to get through the day.

Like everyone on this thread said, it’s good to start getting help now! Bc you deserve to eat and feel good about yourself 24/7.

[Tinabum in reply to Grace367]

thank you! I honestly thought I was alone because I always hear about people comfort eating but I don't know anything about the opposite. Like comfort starving? is that even a thing? idk when I felt hungry it obviously didn't feel good but it also reminded me that I had to do things and kept me going through the day. at this point however I don't really feel hunger anymore and keep forgetting to eat until i get dizzy :/ I told my friend about it but she is suffering from anorexia and I don't feel like I should put my problems on her plate as well

[Want2BHappy3]

I know how you feel, i went 2 days on a pack of string cheese. Another day 1 boiled egg n cup of V8 juice. To have some kind of vitamins. It's scary because my doctor told me I had low blood pressure, which can be as bad as high blood pressure? Plus I have diabetes, it can mess with that too.

At least keep hydrateded, if I can't eat. I'm 63 and lost over 40 pounds, which for someone my age is difficult to do, but came Easy because of my back of food. Thing is, when im feeling better I gain the weight back as fast as I lost it.

The plus side is that my acid reflux is gon, knees have stopped hurting and clothes that I haven't worn in years fit. So I've gotta figure that out? Wish you the best

[Tinabum in reply to Want2BHappy3]

I never really gain weight at all idk why I find it hard. I usually opt to sweets or snacks to get me through the day which is super bad for my teeth but I can't eat anything filling because it feels like it's too much? I'm hoping you can figure this out too because diabetes is like super serious. I will try to stay hydrated though thanks for the advice and understanding.

[Want2BHappy3 in reply to Tinabum]

No problem that's what people on this site do. this happens Everytime I get an anxiety attack. I don't really keep junk food in my home, my daughter doesn't allow it because of my grandson. In dealing with this the best I can

[Tinabum]

afterwards I just felt pathetic I hope it doesn't happen to you again ♥ it's horrible

[Grace367]

I can’t comfort eat when I’m depressed or anxious. I think it’s bc I love food and I’d feel like I’m “rewarding” myself. I think it’s more of a control thing for me. Like I can’t control my thoughts but I can control what goes into my stomach. But I agree with what you said about how the hunger keeps you going. It’s hard to relax so you keep working and feeling productive.

[Tinabum in reply to Grace367]

the controle thing actually makes a lot of sense I think I know what you mean

[Grace367 in reply to Tinabum]

That’s just my theory lol. I’ve only recently started therapy and we haven’t gotten into it yet

[Tinabum]

oh yeah I've seen that haha. I suppose you're right i am a bit hard on myself. thank you

[Tinabum]

can anyone tell me what i can expect of therapy? like do I have to talk or am I being asked things? cause i am really bad at talking

[Aesclepius]

It depends on the kind of therapist that you find- Freudian, Relational, CBT. Hopefully, your therapist will provide a warm and supportive environment where you will feel respected, appreciated and loved, and that will allow you to see things differently and to change your life.