Anxious and blaming myself

[ohheyitsstacy]

Hey guys, my name is Stacy, and lately I have been feeling really down. About 3 months ago I went through a bad break up which I can't get over, with my ex dumping me when I was not in a good state. The follow up to this was that I was having really bad insecurity and jealousy that turned into really bad anxiety. I had never had anxiety and it was pretty scary, as well as frustrating for my ex bf and family. It got to a point where I was like I need to do something about it, so I went to counselling and slowly regained my strength and was getting better. I was still insecure, jealous and anxious in re to my ex, but I was getting better. And I really needed him to support me, but I guess he got tired of it because he dumped me and said "we are too different" and "your issue made me stressed", even though I never wanted to hurt him with my issues. So I feel really really lost and confused, and like it's all my fault that I hurt/pushed him away with my issues, and that I wasn't strong enough. I hate how insecure and jealous I was and got, and how prone to jealousy I am. And it doesn't help that my parents keep on telling me that "I am demanding, and need to move on, that my temper and personality is really hard". I take it all really personally like there's something wrong with me, and it makes me blame myself even more for driving him away.....